Heading to a new DESTINATION

After for a quite some time, finally ive posted something. There are so many lyrics tht i wanted to post rite now.. seems like every song is related to me, that could describes the undescribeable feelings that im having at the moment. Am i being too emotional? Hurm, yeah.. i guess i am! *sigh*.. The last text msg that ive sent.. "Starting from now on, i'll let ya go.. totally! I'll stop hopping anythin frm ya.. slamat bertunang n gudnite!". Manusia merancang, Dia tentukan. Eventho we're still in luv with each other like h*ll, but then when He said "Enough, the time is up!", we actually dont really hv a choice except to say our very last word.. "Goodbye!". 2 years - wasted! Really meh? Not really.. the gud memories are still remain. u're still one of the best thing tht ever happened in my life. Thanks for brought me to my next 'destination', i'll remember all the bittersweet momeries that we've had together along the 'journey'. i guess i need to wait a little while for another 'train' to come by and pick me up and this time hopefully it will be the last 'train' that could helps me to reach my final 'destination' and starts a new beginning from there. But before that, i really need a break..

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse?

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth


Actually i shud thx to God tht im not loosing any of my precious beloved fam, i only lose someone tht used to be the other half of me, used to think like tht in the previous days. But i guess only God knows whats better for us, He will only gives us something/someone that we NEED and not something/someone that we WANT. He knows our needs and He complete it for us.. sooner or later, He will coz He knows whats the best for each of us. But still... at the moment, i just cant think straight, being stubborn as i am rite now.. keep questioning WHY and WHY and WHY?! I just cant stop thinking bout it.. STU-PID huh? yeah i guess i am.. stupidity is always gonna be apart of me aite? Just like my blog's title...

Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and Im ashamed bound and broken on the floor
Youre a little late, Im already torn


By the way, thanks to my very dearest frens for being so supportive, i know u guys want to keep myself moving.. "Move on suerie, taper ko cute ape... cari len k?" Haha.. everybody keep saying the same damn thing.. lawak! Yer saya tawu saya cute dan saya tawu cobaan anda sume untuk menjaga ati saya.. oh terharu kawan-kawan! Mmuah3x!! Define cute? Cute = not ugly but adorable.. haha! Taper, saya paham niat murni anda sume.. ;p Nway, yes.. i need to move on, hangover sampai bila pun tataw coz dont have any reason to hate him, mebi there is but im too blinded by him so thts y i cant find any faulties.. lol! S-T-U-P-I-D :D

It may be over but it won't stop there
I am here for you if you'd only care
You touched my heart, you touched my soul
You changed my life and all my goals
And love is blind and that I knew when
My heart was blinded by you
I've kissed your lips and held your hand
Shared your dreams and shared your bed
I know you well, I know your smell
I've been addicted to you

Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one
You have been the one for me

I am a dreamer and when I wake
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take
And as you move on, remember me
Remember us and all we used to be


MARCH - the beginning of new career and life! Hopefully in the becoming days and years, life will be much more easier for me to get through coz i had enough! Ni just dugaan kecik jegh, yeah i know that but im just being as stubborn as i said! There are still a lot of things tht i wanna write here but hey, u know what? Sometimes certain things are better to be left unsaid... aite? Last phrase, HEY HAPPY-NESS, COME AND FIND ME!!!!! :D

I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you


p/s: when will i get over you?

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