Thursday, March 31

Peace from Broken Pieces: When Life Falls Apart

It is often difficult to identify the exact moment that your life falls apart. In most cases, it is not a one-shot deal. If you ask most people who have had the experience of losing everything they love or believe in, they will probably say it was not one telephone call or one letter, one revelation or realization that caused the collapse of life as they knew it. I now understand that my life fell apart one piece at a time. Piece by piece; one experience, one situation, and one circumstance at a time, until I found myself standing in the midst of a heap of broken promises, splintered relationships, and shattered dreams. It is not a place that I ever imagined I would find myself again, after I had gotten through it the first and second times.

The breaking down into pieces of a life is a painful thing to watch and even more painful to endure. Even more devastating is that as your life begins to unravel, day by day, piece by piece, there is absolutely nothing you can do to stop it. You see what is happening. You know what is happening. And you want anything other than what is happening to happen. You see, somewhere deep inside, we know that lives are not built to fall apart. That is just not what lives are meant to do. The lives we are given by God are meant by God to grow, to blossom and flourish. The reality is, however, lives do crumble.

I now realize that lives fall apart when they need to be rebuilt. Lives fall apart when the foundation upon which they were built needs to be relaid. Lives fall apart, not because God is punishing us for what we have or have not done. Lives fall apart because they need to.

They need to because they weren’t built the right way in the first place. I came to this realization one day, after many days, weeks, months, and years of trying to fix the cracks in my foundation. One day, one moment of time, as I sat helplessly surveying the broken pieces of my mind, heart, and life, I recognized that a broken life is a test of faith of the highest order.

In peace, not pieces anymore.

Iyanla Vanzant
Peace From Broken Pieces



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Monday, March 28

Happened, Happening, Happens

I owe this blog lots of update. So yeah, I'm gonna write down that typical 'statement' - I've been superb busy for the past few months way to go until June. Yeah, harapnya just until June. Been working from 9:00 AM to 10:00 PM almost everyday and I haven't take any leave yet for this year, how sad. Macam mana nak apply cuti, project berderet dari awal tahun till mid-year. Berkecai harapan nak join Firdaus pergi Korea this coming June, sobs!

Nak update dari January till March, sure panjang lebar. So, I'm gonna make it short. Really really really short, PROMISE!

The one who've just left for NZ!
My dearest sister, Ayang and the whole family just moved to Hamilton, New Zealand last month. My BIL is currently furthering his study in PhD at University of Waikato for 3 years. Even though bebudak kecik ni nakal nakal, tapi percayalah.. yang nenakal ni jugak lah yang Tok Wan dia rindu sangat. Hehari bukak Facebook tatap gambar cucu-cucu dia bertiga ni. Jumpa tahun depan! (kalau ada duit, LOL)



The one who've just got back from Aussie!
YAY! Wani Ardy in d'house yaw, she's finally came back for good. Baguslah, heharap dah takde masalah tak tidur malam, berjaga sampai ke Subuh. Hope not, dengar tak tu Wani? *cough*



The one who've just got married!
Anne (Muhaini Muhammad), my ex-roommate masa kat Matrikulasi Melaka just got married recently. Great, semua ex-roommate I masa matriks, tetiga dah kahwin. Yang kelakarnya, masa matriks dulu diorang buat prediction that I'm gonna be the first among us yang akan kahwin. Eventually, it becomes the other way round, haha. Don't you think it's funny? NO! -_-"



The one who've just got.. err a little more less younger? LOL!
Yeah yeah yeah, siapa lagi kalau bukan anak Haji Mansor. Turned 28 on Feb 17 and as usual, nothing much less ordinary. Cuma yang terharunya, my officemates a.k.a The Annoying Oranges bought me a birthday cake and present which was very unexpected. Thank you so much girls for the red purse and thank you to my sister for the sling. Love you all to the bits! <3

And oh, my little niece celebrated her 7th birthday just few days after mine :) Nampak je innocent minah ni tapi boleh tahan jugak. Ada ke dia bawak balik exam paper dia? Dia cakap, "Adik bawak balik sebab Adik belum habis jawab lagi la Mama". Oh gosh, saya lurus, saya OK? *tepuk dahi*






And last but not least, we've just got new family members!
We have cats in the house now, yaw! Aduka, Cempaka and err.. I don't know how to spell the name correctly, the name is E'oww? Kot.. huhu. Aduka and Cempaka? Don't ask me why, ask my brother please, LOL!

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Friday, March 25

Waiting Outside The Lines

You’ll never enjoy your life, living inside the box
You’re so afraid of taking chances, how you gonna reach the top?
Rules and regulations, force you to play it safe
Get rid of all the hesitation, it’s time for you to seize the day

I’m waiting.. just waiting
I’m waiting.. waiting outside the lines

Try to have no regrets even if it’s just tonight
How you gonna walk ahead, if you keep living blind?
Stuck in my same position, you deserve so much more
There’s a whole world around us, just waiting to be explored

Instead of just sitting around and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground
The time is now.. just let it go

The world will force you to smile
I’m here to help you notice the rainbow
Cause I know.. what’s in you is out there

by Greyson Chance



I’m here to help you notice the rainbow
Cause I know.. what’s in you is out there

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Sunday, March 20

Jar of Hearts

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all



by Christina Perri

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Tuesday, March 15

Pray For Japan

Thanks to Shahril for sharing this link on Twitter. It's a compilation of touching stories after the Tsunami incident in Japan. I can't even imagine how to stay calm as they are now, they are really strong mentally and emotionally. Hopefully they will stay strong. Lets pray for Japan shall we?

Article:
Heartwarming Indeed

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Monday, March 14

Current Lullaby

#1 This Man by Hyun Bin
(Secret Garden OST)
My favorite part is the chorus, the 'softness' of his voice.. *blushed*

#2 For You It's Separation, To Me It's Waiting by Hero Jaejoong (JYJ)
(SungKyuKwan Scandal OST)
I like Hero's version better compared to the original song. Definitely more 'soul' and 'feel'.

#3 Proud by DBSK
(Not an OST for any series.. as far as I know)
Accidentally found this song while youtube-ing on Micky Yoochun - the lead actor in SungKyuKwan Scandal. He laugh easily, he cries easily - to cut it short, he is a little bit sensitive and emotional among them (ex-DBSK members). That is what I love the most about him (dan juga pipi bola pimpong beliau, ngee)


YES, Korean series are addictive and yes, itu je saya nak nak update.
OKTHANKSBYE.

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