Twenty Ten: What makes your rising sun so new?

We will open the book.
Its pages are blank.
We are going to put words on them ourselves.
The book is called "Opportunity"
and its first chapter is New Year's Day.

Another fresh beginning, another year to live, another year to breathe, another opportunity to right some wrongs. Wish that 2010 will be way brighter than any other years before.

Cheers to a new year!

December 29, 2009. BBQ at Syafiq's place, Shah Alam

150 Juta by Fynn Jamal

youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4d86qw4J9kU

Untuk kali keseratus lima puluh juta
Mereka tanyakan engkau soalan yang sama
"Eh kenapa kau masih lagi mahukan dia?"
"Apa kau buta, apa kau pura-pura suka"

Di seratus lima puluh juta kali itu
Di depan semua engkau tarik tangan aku
Dan sedang buat ..?.. kau suka ambil tahu
Sambil ketawa engkau bilang satu per satu

"Dia mungkin bengis seperti singa"
"Tapi dia nangis tonton cerita Korea"
"Dia mungkin keras bila bersuara"
"Tapi dia jelas, jujur apa adanya"

"Aku lagi kenal dia"

Dah lebih seratus lima puluh juta kali
Aku pesan padamu apa yang bakal jadi
Engkau dan aku ada ..?.. mungkin tidak serasi
Engkau sangat manis, aku ini pula dawai besi

Di setiap seratus lima puluh jutanya
Aku pun dalam hati semacam tak percaya
Apa kau lihat pada aku jujurkan saja
Terus kau cubit dagu aku, sambil berkata

"Saya mungkin baran tak kira masa"
"Tapi saya tahan kalau yang salah saya"
"Saya mungkin saja keras kepala"
"Tapi saya manja bila kita berdua"

"Saya kenal sayang saya"

Buat apa dicerita
Bahagia kita rasa
Biar tak dipercaya
Peduli orang kata

Baju ronyok tak apa
Asal pakai selesa
Berkilau tak bermakna
Kalau hati tak ada

Aku lebih bengis dari sang naga
Tapi bisa nangis semata demi cinta
Suaraku keras tak berbahasa
Kerna aku rimas gedik mengada-ngada

Aku mudah baran tidak semena
Mana boleh tahan angin cemburu buta
Dan aku sengaja tunjuk keras kepala
Aku punya manja, kau saja boleh rasa

Rahsia kita berdua..


Kelmarin Fynn nyanyi lagu ni, sangat comel and yes, gedik HAHAHAHA. By the way, maaf kalau lyrics tak betul, because lagu ni baru lagi so lyrics belum available. Salin sendiri, LOL!

What IF

taken on December 22, 2009
bukit MARDI, UPM

'Follow your instinct' they say..

What if.. what you feel is an instinct is not an instinct
What if.. it's something else altogether
Or it is merely.. not an instinct..
but a fictional creation of your imaginary mind.

WHAT IF, is a question that comes up all the time when a decision is to be made. It is a question that always lingers in the air, in the back of our mind. An endless questions, and the answers are never absolute because we will never know what would have been if we choose this one instead of any other. And then again, we will start wondering, if we have made the right choice.

See..? It pops up everytime.
As I said, it's gonna be an endless question.

Whatever it is, there are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad where we need to make a decision and make a "move". Else, we will be stuck in NEVERLAND for years.

But again, what if.. we do nothing? What would happen then?
What if.. by not making a "move", is the best choice?
What if.. the NEVERLAND is already written as your final destination?
Again.. what if?

It's only a twisted-mind game, we're the prisoner of our own thoughts.
Don't get fooled!

Sherlock Holmes

One word - HILARIOUS! It isn't that heavy, a fine balance between comedy and adventure. Very hilarious especially Mr SHerlock Holmes (Robert Downey). Watak dia gegila macam Jack Sparrow. As I said, he's hilarious, crazy yet brilliant and intelligent.. well-blended. And as always, Jude Law's eyes membuat daku terpaku.. auww! Gorgeous gorgeous gorgonnn haha!

"Singularity is almost invariably a clue."
Sherlock Holmes

HOME ALONE (not that movie)

Mak and Abah currently in Mecca, performing umrah. This is their 5th visit, seronok sangat katanya. They'll be back on January 1st, so basically I'll be "HOME ALONE" for another 8 days till New Year. ALONE means BOREDOM, and this is what I do when I'm in the middle of BOREDOM.. MUAHAHAHAHA! Astaga.. yeah, I know T___T

BFF's Engagement

She started dating her 'man' on March 2006 and it has been almost 4 years since they've been together. Oh well, to cut it short, she's finally taken officially on December 18, 2009. I was extremely excited when she first told me about the good news few months ago. I was the first to know and I was (and I am still) feel very honored, but at the same time it was torture for me to keep it as secret as told. Dang! Sekarang tak perlu simpan-simpan lagi, fuhh dah tak sesak dah dada. :)

Again, congratulations on your engagement, Cik Aqeelah!

This is my wish for you:
comfort on difficult days,
smiles when sadness intrudes,
rainbows to follow the clouds,
laughter to kiss your lips,
sunsets to warm your heart,
hugs when spirits sag,
beauty for your eyes to see,
friendships to brighten your being,
faith so that you can believe,
confidence for when you doubt,
courage to know yourself,
patience to accept the truth,
and LOVE to complete your life.

Upon A Star

Even though my birthday is still so far ahead, but I've already got my birthday present in advance. Sangat suka, yeay!! Thank you very (1000x) much to YOU-KNOW-WHO-YOU-ARE, terima kasih bangat!! Love you mucho and I really mean it, not only because you gave me this, ya. Kalau tak dapat pape pun, I love you still.. LOL! ;p

Papadom vs Papachot (Abah)

Last night, Nurul asked me to check out Intan's recent note, posted on FB. I was too tired to log in to FB, so I didn't. I went to sleep instead. Finally just now, I've read the note as told. I was not even halfway through reading the note when suddenly, I burst into tears. "Papadom vs Papachot @ Abah" - that's the title of the entry. FYI, Abah is also known as Chot among our relatives on Abah's side in Kedah. You might know nothing about Abah, therefore, here I would like to share this note that had so many heartfelt memories, written by Intan, my 3rd elder sister.

Hello....

It has been awhile since I last posted note in my FB and it also has been awhile since I last wrote on my blog. But today, after watching Papadom, I just feel like wanna share stories about my Papachot.

I never thought that this Papadom would be non-comedy movie, like Afdlin's other movies. Yeah, I didn't read the review about it. Hubby gave the link to me, so because I had no other 'stocks' on my laptop, I watched it. At the end, iskkk... it reminds me about all that Abah did, not only for me but for our family.

In Papadom, Saadom did everything he can to protect his daughter. He made sure that she was safe and sound, especially after the incident that happened to his wife. My Abah also did the same to us. The different was, my Abah was and also is.. not as wealthy as Papadom, who could do anything just to be with his daughter.

My Abah sacrifices his life for us. Yes, it's not past tense. Because at this age, unfortunately, he still does a lot of things for us, including me. I wish I am a millionaire, so that I can give him whatever that he needs, so that he doesn't need to work. He has been working since he was 18 years old and now he is 56. It's about time for him to stay at home, enjoy his life.. but, I AM NOT even half way to be a millionaire.

This evening, I chatted with my sis and I told her to make sure that once she started working, don't forget about our parent, especially my dad. I told her that whatever difficulties that may arise, we should not burden Abah. Alhamdulillah, since I got my 1st salary, I manage to ease their burden (not 100% of coz). I told my sis, not all the time we can give whatever Abah asks for, but at least, we should not make him upset.

I still remember when I was at MRSM, at that time, I was his first kid who stayed at hostel. There was one time, Abah came to fetch me back home. It was end of the month, when everybody was allowed to go home for 2 nights. I didn't manage to get a bus ticket (I cannot remember why). I saw Abah waiting for me at the car park. We didn't have car at that time, because for him, education for his kids is more important than comfort in his life. He RODE motorbike all the way from Serdang to Melaka!! He came just to make sure that I can go home to be with my family. I guess he didn't want her daughter to spend the weekend at hostel, while most of the students are with their own families.

The moment I saw the bike, he told me, "It's ok, we will go to taxi station. You go back by taxi". How could I let my own dad riding a bike ALONE, while I sit in a comfort taxi? How could I travel around 120 km by taxi, when I know my dad is riding bike THAT FAR? Then I said, "No, I will go with you.". Yup, that was exactly what I did.

I believe most of you, had never been on motorbike that far (except for those who had been on bike expidition, or guys who had motorbike before) but, I experienced it myself. Every time Abah is asking me to do something, I keep reminding myself of this moment, keep telling myself, because of him, I am here.. because of him, I achieved a lot of things.

Enough flashbacks of my old memories. Until now, Abah is still Abah, who cares about his kids. Eventhough three of his kids are married (including me), he never forget us. Every time he goes for outstation and bring back raw seafood or durian, he calls each one of us and asks us to come over and take some of them. Every time he bring back something nice, and any of my younger sisters are not around (either at hostels or etc), he tells Mak not to tell them. When I wanted to sell my old car, he was the one who arrange it for me. Even when I go for assignment (outstation), almost every time, he sends me off to the airport.

So, let us be grateful for whatever that our dads have done for us. Only Him can pay our dads for all their kindness.

Cheers,
Intan..

p/s: only now I remember, actually Papachot really SIMILAR with Papadom. Papachot worked as Security Officer when I studied @ UKM.. hihihihi

Seventeen

picture taken by the blog's owner

Two months more to go!!
*jumping jumping*

December: Musim Mengawan, Period

pictures taken by: Zunaira Zulkifli

picture taken by: Bella Juhari

Ding Dong Bell: Finally it's Nizam's & Farah's turn.

Malas nak mengarang, update gambar dulu sebab suka gila gambar ni. Gambar trademark Along, LOL! Ritual selepas attend kenduri kahwin di hari yang panas amat: MAKAN CENDOL. Unfortunately, dedua gerai cendol tutup, dang! Mungkin diorang bukak gerai cendol kat kenduri kahwin pulak semalam. *frustrated*

Anyway, December sesungguhnya memang musim 'mengawan'. Tiap tahun masa December, sure ada sesi menghadiri wedding kengkawan secara marathon tetiap minggu tanpa gagal.

13th Dec - Farah's & Nizam's Wedding
18th Dec - Qiey's Engagement
19th Dec - Makmuk's Wedding
26th Dec - Zura's Wedding
2nd Jan - BJ's Wedding
9th Jan - *cough* Engagement
10th Jan - Zura's Wedding (cousin)

See.. LIMA minggu berturut-turut, tanpa gagal. Sekian..

Mimpi Celik

"..akan dipamerkan di seluruh negeri. Pameran pertama akan berlangsung di Cherating, Pahang pada 14-16 Dis 2009.."

OH EM GEE, biar betul! I've been shortlisted as one of the TOP 30 finalists and I'm the 20th out of 128 entries???
*drop jaw*

Tangan seram sejuk masa baca email ni tadi, sangat tak percaya OK! Rasa macam.. sila la lempang muka aku ni. It's really unexpected seh sebab niat aku bukan untuk menang apa-apa pun, just sekadar to show my support for the "Art for AIDS" campaign. But Alhamdulillah, Dia selalu kurniakan something yang kita sendiri tak terlintas akan dapat, kan? ;')

My submission: FADING AWAY


Isk, still tak percaya!
*sepuk muka sendiri*

Whataya Want From Me?

Oh once upon a time I didn’t give a damn
But now here we are, so whataya want from me?

Adam Lambert is BACK!
So what if he's gay. That doesn't change the fact that he's an amazingly talented individual anyway. Rock on!! *woot*

Psychokinetic Influence

The act of "psychokinetically" affecting your reality is called "manisfestation". By understanding how Psychokinesis works, you are able to know the mechanics of manifestation much better. Changing your reality with your intent is after all a mind thing. Studying how psychic phenomena works, plays a large part in your ability to manifest what you want.

source: http://www.mindreality.com

Suddenly, I think I can relate to this. Chuck, I guess you should start considering to use your Psychokinetic Influence now. Three times in a row? That is coincidence no more, that is FATE! (Oh wow, look who's talking now huh.. haha). Next time (if you are that lucky to meet him again la kan), the moment you see him, kau kena terus pandang dia and say (dalam hati), "Look at me, boy.. look at me! Talk to me.. talk to meeeeee" and your tone harus macam witch tengah cast a spell, hahahaha. Try lah, mana tau jadi ke kan.. just have faith, LOL! Having faith in something puts us in a state of confidence. Oh, I've just read that on the net just now.. hieww :D

But as what Daughtry said in his song..
Be careful what you wish for, cause you just might get it all and then some you dont want.

HAHAHA, psycho tak?

p/s: Err should I just go to the conference this Saturday?
*giggling stupidly*

Thanks For The Boost!

Suessy's comment on my Facebook status. Gosh, I just love every single word that she wrote!

♥ you, Suessy!!! *bighug&smooch*

Quote of The Week

People lately keep on asking me the "cepumas" question and you guys do know what kind of Q that am talking about. Soalan kegemaranku, oh tolonglah percaya (please read it sarcastically, OK). Well, I'm busy putting more 'layers', haha.. nahhh, I'm just not into it as yet. I am feeling tired still. Yeah, it's kinda tiring you know. After you put in so much efforts, but got nothing in return, so you kinda feel frustrated and doesn't feel like 'playing' anymore. And as for now, I'd prefer to just sit back and watch others.. while eating popcorns, LOL! Hey, let's enjoy the show..

There’s a point in life where you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything. But it’s not giving up. It’s realizing that you don’t need certain people and the bullshit they bring.

The Bloody Roses

"Fire Balls of Roses"
Acrylic on canvas
8:30PM November 27, 2009


Do not watch the petals fall from the rose with sadness,
Know that, like life, things sometimes must fade,
before they can bloom again.

I was trying to make use of the Zinc White that I've accidentally bought that day. Honestly, I totally have no idea of what I was doing, haha! Experiment yang entah apa-apa, merapu gila.. hieww! So at the end, I painted half of it black, the best way to express my frustration muahahaha, LOL! I think I will continue to re-paint it later then.

Owh ya, anyway can you actually see the thick textures? Tried to apply impasto technique but bleghhh.. really sucks! Let's try this again some other time, shall we?

p/s: sorry about the lighting, blame the flash! :D