As LAME As Me

I had a half day training this morning for "Semantic Technology: RDF and SPARQL" with MIMOS at the Palace of The Golden Horses, Mines. Went there with Anthony and Shiv Kumar, i was quite blur actually because i've suddenly been slot in on the 3rd day of the training. So i just sat there and listened, jotted down some notes.. and that was it! I do get the rough idea about the whole thing but to implement it, need more workshop dear BOSS! After took my lunch, I straightly drove back to the office.. seems like everybody is still having their lunch, no one was around except those who were in the meeting room. Poor Jesse, always been dragged into meeting by Dr Suresh during lunch hours. Then i just turned on my pc and started to wander around from blogs to blogs. How lame my day is, as lame as me.. LOL! Then I discovered this entry, posted by Miss Aida with title "Unconditional Love". It's a great entry though, very well written. When it comes to something that got to do with broken hearted thingy, im so into it at the moment.. it really got me. Here a few phrase that I took from her entry that really touched me..

"I love deeply, and when I love I give myself fully. I cannot hold back. I always give my heart.."

"If I had to go through all the pain I’ve had in the past five months, I would. I wouldn’t have traded those memories of love for anything. I wouldn’t erase any of it.."

Clap Clap

I drew this for about less than 10 minutes, or maybe 5 minutes kot. Kekunun nak lukis dengan gigihnya, starts with the hair on her forehead then went down to her right eyebrow, after that started to draw her nose (nak elak dari jadik idung siti sarah lagik.. LOL) and then lukis eyebrow for the left side. Pastu carefully drew her left and right eyes, damn.. part mata memang sangat dimencik sebab aku slalu failed and owh part bibir as well, sangat tidak mahir. Thats why, bila sampai part nak sketch bibir dia jegh.. I was like "Alamak.. wth, asal bibir ni tak jadik.. mencik mencik!". Yeah there you go, semangat nak lukis dengan gigihnya - it flew away just like that.. clap clap! Trus aku dah malas nak continue. So I just roughly drew her jaw, hair, neck, hand and added some shades on few areas (kalo pasan satu jarik dier kegemukkan sebab I was superb lazy to fix it sebab ilang mood sudah). And as you can see, both of the pictures are way too different from each other.. Oh sangat spoiled!

Gumok I Am

Nape aku sangat berselera malam ni? Pelik pelik.. usually im a small eater but then balek-balek dari keje tadik, aku trus capai pinggan and makan lempeng aka PANCAKE bak kate omputeh, buatan mak aku. Abes jegh makan lempeng, aku trus gi dapur amek nasi plak. Sambil-sambil layan tv, suddenly mak aku bg tawu yang Ayang, my 2nd sister ade bagi kek biskut merry semalam (err kek batik kot nama dia), alahai aku pn dah lupe nama dia.. hehe. Then aku yang blom sudah lg makan nasik, *pap* trus capai kek tu sepotong.. layann! Wah.. nafsu gaban aku arineh, weird! No wonder before nak kua tadik, jeans aku a little bit tight.. am I getting fat? Yeay.. neat, i loike! Seriously im totally underweight rite now seh, current weight is around 43kg to 44kg and my ideal weight is suppose to be 50kg++, sangat kerempeng kan? Bebudak ni suke panggil aku bini popeye bcoz of tht, and pnah gak mase kat UM dlu Kaj ngan Puch suke sangat sakat aku. Everytime diorg nak cakap TOUCHWOOD, diorang akan sentuh aku and aku plak blur-blur tanye "Apsal tetibe pegang aku plak ni?" and then diorang cakap "Yela.. touchwood kan? im touching a wood ah ni (giggles)". Nyesal gile aku tanye soklan tu *straight face*. And ade one time tu, Kaj bwat lawak buduh kat class..

Kaj : eh suerie, aku rase tadik aku nampak ko.. camne ko bole ade kat sni plak?
Me : huh? bila mase plak ni? dari td aku lepak kat fac jegh
Me : ko nampak aku kat mane kaj?
Kaj : aik.. aku nampak ko mase onda way gi class tadik
Kaj : tapi yang peliknya kan suerie.. every 100 meter jegh aku nampak ko, every 100 meter jegh aku nampak ko lagik..
*Kaj ngan Puch bantai gelak 2 orang*
Me : buduhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Do you guys get it? Tiang lampu! Bole plak sama kan aku ngan tiang lampu, jadah! Owh yeah im damn skinny guys, totally! Just imagine berat aku 43kg with height 168cm.. sangat tidak balance! Sebulan dua ni memang susah sket nak put on weight since that so many things happened and im not that stabled emotionally. But i guess im gonna be OKAY soon (hopefully in matter of time) and now im trying hard to gain weight.. more and more and more. And kalo bole, nak jegh seru sume orang derma lelemak lebihan anda to me, pelis pelis? *muke kesian* huhu..

B to the R to the D.. im in the middle of boredom and i miss...... *sigh*
Oh ape aku merepek ni... c'mon, cut tht crap Suerie! *dush*

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine..

(Rest In Pieces by Saliva)

Marie Digby I LOVE YOU!

Hello everyone!

Here is a chance for you to watch Marie Digby, the girl who found fame through youtube with her version of Umbrella. She's coming down to Malaysia!!!!!

What:Marie Digby Live in Kuala Lumpur
When:14th May 2008 (Wednesday)
Time: 8 PM
Where: Ground Floor, Highstreet, One Utama New Wing
Price: It's FREE, i repeat FREEEEEEEEE showcase, so bring everyone and anyone you know over and lets make it happening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Very Happy

This event is brought to you by GAP & EMI

Marie Digby is coming down to Malaysia!!!! Woah, aku sangat teruja!!!!!! Advert kat atas ni aku dapat from tenet, cepat-cepat aku google psal ni lepas bace kumen Wani. Wani la informer pertama aku, dia anta kumen kat MySpace saying tht Marie Digby akan datang ke Malaysia soon. Sure Wani excited gle kan kan?? Hehe.. beriya-iya dia inform aku nampaknya, mebi sebab aku ade letak clips Marie Digby kat MySpace aku so dia pun tak saba nak share how excited she is bout the news :) Yang lawaknya, tataw kenapa, mase bace kumen tu aku imagine yang Wani was yelling excitedly at me.. LOL! Aku pun dengan pantasnya anta kumen kat Lieya jugak coz both of us are really fallin in love with Digby! We're used to sing/ play guitar @ ym tetiap malam semua lagu-lagu yang Digby pnah main, my fav out of all - Umbrella, You Give Me Something and Traffic (p/s: aku just nyanyi je ok, aku tak reti bermain any instrument.. Lieya is the pro, LOL). By the way, I really really really wanna go to watch Marie Digby's live performance, also wanna see for myself how pretty she is.. uhhh hotness bangat sih! But aku pun tak sure lagi lepas ke tak nak pegi ni coz aku seperti biase ade cerfue di umah but maybe if I ask my brother to come along then maybe mak bagi green light kot, hehe hopefully. Tu pun kalo Firdaus tak keje malam tu, adeh.

Anyway, tak sume orang suke Digby yang cantek jelita itu rupanya.. haha!

me : marie digby is coming down.. this 14th may
anis : oh ye ker?
anis : hahaha...dtg kl?
anis : what now, she's a celebrity?
anis : tak nak ler tgk die...
anis : kalo nyanyi lagu org buat ape...
me : lol
me : aku suka dier sgt!
me : dier ade lagu sendiri la
me : traffic
me : and mase christmas aritu ade a few songs yg dier tulis
me : oh aku sgt suke dier!!!! :x
anis : hahaha...okay...
anis : me no likey
me : lol...

A Little Too IRONIC

A couple of days ago, suprisingly Wani buzzed me at ym.. hehe, ofcoz la suprise coz slalunya Wani bizik dengan keje2 dia and her status always stated something like "bizik, jgn kacau. kalo tidak saya tumbok perut kamu!". Cute jegh munyiknya kan, tak menggerunkan langsung haha. Nway Wani buzzed aku sebab dia nak inform psal clips performance dia kat YouTube. I've already watched one of her clips yesterday, she was so cute and so girly in skirty, grrr! (sorry Wani, tak sempat nak tinguk kelmarin) Seperti biase, Suddenly Lewat is one of my fav song out of all. Kalo la lagu Graviti version BM yang ditranslate by Wani bole dimainkan sewenang-wenangnya tanpa ade isu plagiat or whtsoeva, i'll bet that alot of ppl will luv to listen to tht song seriously. She's very talented indeed and hopefully she can goes further and further in this field, saba yer cik Wani.. just in a matter of time. Nway for those yang interested to check out her clips, just go to YouTube and search for Wani Ardy or go to www.myspace.com/waniardy to listen to her demo songs, check 'em out okay! Plus she will be having a live performance on 14th June, for further details just click on the flyers on my right sidebar. Do support our local music scene, oh yeah! (oh aku sangat poyo di sini.. haha)

And owh, forgot to mention about how IRONIC life is! Bcoz you know what, i've just found out that bestfriend Wani is a friend of Lieya which is a very close friend of mine. Haa.. pening tak bace ayat aku yang berbelit ni? Aku lagik pening mase 1st time Lieya cite aritu, haha! (nway, we called each other boo)

Lieya : boo.. i met wani smlm!!!
Me : huh??? wani? cmne leh jmpe? kat mane? how... how??
Lieya : kt umah wa, shukor singgah.. dier seret wani skalik.. =))
Me : =))
Me : eh jap boo.. shukor tu sape?
Me : pe kne mengena wani ngan shukor? cmne leh hangout tugeder?
Lieya : shukor tu bestfriend wani rupenye.. :)) yg slalu perform ngan wani tu..
Me : lorh.. wht a very very very small world!! adoi :))

...conversation seterusnya terpakse dipotong sebab kami sudah banyak merepek and most of our convo mmg full of emote ym memanjang, muahaha! Nway ni bukan convo asal bcoz unfortunately aku tak set archive setting kat ym but most of it sounded cmtu la. Ekceli mende mcm neh dah banyak kali jadik, orang ni kawan dengan orang ni and orang ni knal orang ni. Pusing-pusing kat situ jugak, balek-balek muke yang sama jugak.. klaka btul, huhu. Mende yang sama jadik mase aku mula-mula knal Beck, Ono, Nazer, Jesse and sape-sape lagi ntah. Sume last-last end up being a friend of a friend of mine, macam chain plak.. society yang berantai. Ni sume gara-gara teknologi WEB 2.0 such as MySpace, Friendster, blogs and etc, membuatkan kita sume berada dalam society yang berantai. Macam petikan lyrics from Half Light by Athlete which is used to be my headline kat Friendster, it says:

Its you and me connected to a satellite
Its you and me love through a machine


Keep your eyes wide open and you'll see how IRONIC life is..

p/s: smlm mase tinguk clips Wani kat YouTube, aku layan satu clips ni dari Yuna title Polaroid (Oh Chentaku cover).. wow, beliyaw juger hebat.. clap clap!

Il Mare

"Could have been no two hearts so open
No tastes so similar
No feelings so in unison
No countenances so beloved.. "

Persuasion by Jane Austen


"Semua tak sama.. tak pernah sama
Apa yang kusentuh
Apa yang kukucup
Sehangat pelukmu
Selembut belaimu
Tak ada satu pun yang mampu menjadi sepertimu.."

Semua Tak Sama by Padi

Satu petikan dari filem The Lake House/Il Mare and another one adalah sebahagian bait-bait dari lagu Semua Tak Sama by Padi. The meaning is quite similar i think, i mean apa yang cuba disampaikan ada persamaannya di situ. Yeah, everything is unique on its own way itself.. dont you think?

Empty

Tried to take a picture.. of love
Didn't think I'd miss her that much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

Tried to write a letter.. in ink
Its been getting better I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty.. its empty

Maybe we're trying.. trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing.. is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I've even wondered.. if we
Should be getting under these sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty.. its empty

Maybe we're trying.. trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing.. is beating our hearts
We're empty

We're empty
We're empty

Again, i was bored last nite so i drew this portrait before i went to bed.. pardon me, its just another lame drawing, ngeehee! By the way, lets named her JANE DOE as i dont know who the h*ll is she. At first, thought of taking the piccies of the MAKING OF but then bila dah start sketch, trus taleh nak stop dah or else nanti dah tak reti nak continue balek.. slalu camtu hehe! So i just kept on drawing till finished (which is referring to drawing #1), but then terase macam kosong jegh so i added some shade on it which is referring to drawing #2. But again, tangan ni terase gatal-gatal lagik nak tetambah something.. so for the final touch: tambah LEHER BAJU SEJUK/SWEATER COLAR! muahaha.. merepek aje kan? Okay, DONE! Haih, how i wish im as good as my cousins.. they're really good in ART seriously, superb talented they are!

Nway, you can click on the piccies for the original size of it.

Monday, 14th

10:00pm
13th April 2008

titt titt titt titt.. titt titt titt titt.. *fon's reminder*

"anniversary 26 months!!"

Aiseh, how come aku tak turn off lagik reminder2 ni sume.. damn! Langsung bergenang kejap mata ni.. layan perasaan kejap for 10 to 15 minutes then bingkas bangun gi toilet basuh muka, pkai toner and etc.. Then masuk lik bilik, turned on aircond, tutup lampu and pejam mata kuat-kuat... yeah, tido itu lagi indah!

Arkib Lagu

click for lyrics: Terbaik originally by Ello

menggodek lagu-lagu lama yg very dear to my heart and this is the pick of the week.. posted the lyrics previously around august 2006, fell in luv with this song bcoz of Lokman, one of the contestant of OIAM 2006 (he sang it beautifully). Listen to the lyrics, simple je but...

Im sinking.. pull me up!

It has been more than a month now since we broke up, yet I'm still missing u! H*ll..

Ya, gamba-gamba kamu still ada dalam purse orang.
Ya, gamba-gamba kamu still ada dalam phone orang.
Ya, gamba-gamba kamu still ada dalam FS/MS orang.

Honestly, I'm still crying over you almost everyday at nite.
Honestly, I'm still thinking of you every now and then.
Honestly, I'm always wanting us to be like we were used to be.. but I know, it's such a waste!


Like I've told to you before, I can't be JUST A FRIEND of yours at the moment. Maaf, orang tak cukup kuat and belum mampu lagi nak buat macam tu. It's not that I hate you but I just can't do it, I'm not ready yet. It might be easy for you to do so but it isn't for me. I need a space, I really need a good break and I need to mind our distance. I need more time to wipe off this two years of memories. It's gonna take for a quite some time. *sigh*

Im sinking.. pull me up!
God, please help me and just let me out of this mess..

"...dan sesiapa yang bertaqwa kepada Allah, dengan mengerjakan suruhan-Nya dan meninggalkan larangan-Nya, nescaya Allah akan mengadakan baginya jalan keluar dari segala perkara yang menyusahkannya, serta memberinya rezeki dari jalan yang tak terlintas di hatinya. Dan ingatlah, sesiapa yang berserah diri bulat-bulat kepada Allah, maka Allah cukuplah baginya untuk menolong dan menyelamatkannya. Sesungguhnya Allah tetap melaksana segala urusan yang dikehendaki-Nya dan sesungguhnya Allah telah menentukan qadaq dan qadar bagi tiap-tiap sesuatu.."

..maksud ayat Seribu Dinar

Refleksi: Logik dan Rasional

"rupanya lebih mudah bersandar pada mereka yang tidak bernyawa dari mereka yang punya kaki untuk pergi. Anyway.. if you look closely enough, you'll see there's always something to be grateful about. God will never test you with challenges that you're not capable of handling.."


So true.. banyak kata-kata Wani Ardy yg reflect back to me, i told her that seems like she's writting on behalf of me.. haha! Every single word that she wrote reminds me of myself, seriously.. funny huh? Well, thx to u Wani.. it motivates me! Eventho it was meant to motivate urself but yeah, eventually ia pun menyenangkan ati saya juger. Penampar dengan kuat di pipiku yang tak berapa gebu ni pun boleh juga dijadikan motivation, i just need to wake up and buka mata luas-luas to see things clearly and rationally. Pilih-pilih, pipi kanan or pipi kiri? Suite yourself.. tapi kalo terserempak dengan aku kat mane-mane, bagi la salam dulu yer sebelum melempang aku.. kalo tak, i'll see u in court! ;p


"apabila kita merenung apa yang kita ada, dan tidak mengeluh apa yang kita tidak ada, kita merasa lebih tenang..
bahagia tetap sukar untuk dikecapi. Tetapi insyaAllah, sifat redha itu permulaannya.."

Letter To Saviour

Saved, Cured, Fixed EP
Song & Lyrics: Wani Ardy


You should've known
I'm here for you
I can let go
If I want to

You shouldn't have
Take me for granted
Or baby, I'll be out from here
And you'll be sorry for so many years

Sometimes I feel so stupid
Now don't you go and blame me
You're not even here
And even if you are
Your soul for me has died, yeah

Sometimes I feel so worthless
Now don't you go and blame me
You gave me hopes
But I'm the only one
Who's working it

I need to be saved
I need to be cured
I need to be fixed
Would you be my prince?

Or are you just another lesson of life?
Please don't
Please be my rainbow
And not raindrops from the sky



© Nur Syazwani Abdul Rahim, 2007

Can't You See? by Wani Ardy

Song: Wani Ardy & Shukor Fuad
Lyrics: Wani Ardy
Original Idea: Jay Farhana


It starts with me feeling empty
It ends with you all around me
It starts with me realizing something is missing
It ends with you coming into memory

Who would catch me if I fall now?
Who would lift me up if I'm down now?

I can live without you
It's just that I don't want to, don't want to
And I can sing without you
But who am I supposed to sing to?
The only thing that comforts me
Is knowing that we're under the same sky
And the same air we breathe
Can't you see I miss you here?

It's as stupid as the sight of your car
Makes my heart skip a beat
It's as lame as the sight of the sea
Makes me whispering and thinking you can actually hear
(Actually feel)

I can live without you
It's just that I don't want to, don't want to
And I can sing without you
But who am I supposed to sing to?
The only thing that comforts me
Is knowing that we're under the same sky
And the same air we breathe
Can't you see?


© Nur Syazwani Abdul Rahim, 2008


p/s: hey wani, i really2 adore ur works.. :) cant you see? lol

Used To by Chris Daughtry

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around
You used to lean on me like
The only other choice was falling down
You used to walk with me like
We had nowhere we needed to go
Nice and slow, to no place in particular

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought
We used to know
At least there's you, and at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I used to reach for you when
I got lost along the way
I used to listen
You always had just the right thing to say
I used to follow you
Never really cared where we would go
Fast or slow, to anywhere at all

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought
We used to know
At least there's you, and at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I look around me
And I want you to be there
'Cause I miss the things that we shared
Look around you
It's empty, and you're sad
'Cause you miss the love that we had

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around
The only one around

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought
We used to know
At least there's you, and at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?
To how it used to be
To how it used to be
To how it used to be
To how it used to be