A Minute

Facts about Suerie Mansor

she wanted to say something but somehow.. the words got stucked as she's trying to spill it out
she gives advise alot to others but she didnt listen to any
used to call up her buddies whenever she need to talk to someone, but she no longer do that (less)
the reason for above, bcoz she feels that everybody got their own mess that they need to deal with 1st, they dont need another one
most of the time she will looks so happy, her face looks so bright and on giggly mode 24-7 but.....
and just now, tetiba she was being too harsh with one of her so-called friend..

how bright do you think you can be, when the world is too wide for this tiny little 'sunshine'..

Hectic Weekend

On last 2 weeks, 'Bugatti Veyron' aku got banged up by a Merc (which is Merc Merc, not 'Merc'). Mase tu Mas yang drive and she claimed that it was her fault so masing-masing keluar kereta and tinguk-tinguk kereta memasing, and pakcik tu cakap OK, akak aku pun cakap Ok.. then say sorry and etc pastu blah. And then semalam Mas ngan abah pegi anta 'Bugatti Veyron' aku kat bengkel for repair, so hari ni terpaksa la drive my mum's 'Koenigsegg CCX' to work.. haih, 'indah' tak hidup? Bertambah indah bcoz I don't have to pay a cent, it's totally paid by Mas.. indah? Indeed.... -_-"

Reference:
Bugatti Veyron - is referring to Kelisa SE
Koenigsegg CCX - is referring to Kelisa

buwahahaha..

Anyway, last weekend sgtlah hectic.. schedule sgt fulled! Dengan open house lagi, wedding lagi.. tiring but am having lots of fun! Oh ya, for the 1st time aku tinguk wedding, berarak bawah pedang mase kat wedding Fadzuan.. cool! I'll upload some of the piccies, unfortunately I don't have a camera so thanks to Moon penyelamat angkasa, sebab bawak camera so sempat la aku camwhoring sekejap, hoho!! Okla, later continue update this entry with loads of photos k? Toodles!

with Moon at Fadzuan's Wedding 261008

Love Bug

Now I'm speechless, over the edge
I'm just breathless, I never thought
That I'd catch this love bug again

Hopeless, head over heels in the
Moment, I never thought that I'd
Get hit by this love bug again

alahai.. this song is soooooo darn cutie seh! Akan tetapi.......... when i've found out it's from the Jonas Brothers, I was like........ -_-" what the *tuuuuuttt*

List & Play (Playlist)

I've just updated my playlist.. and nah Chucky, here's the lyrics of the song that I've told you before. Dah check clips Mystery Jets ni kah kamu? Silly aite? LOL.. need to dig for more new songs, am getting bored with the existing one. Hurm, I'll start digging again as soon as I've finished with my slides, waaaaaa im scared! Damn havent finish my slides yet, damn it damn it!! What the h*ll am I doing here, ya tell me?! Hehe.. kk enough with the so-lame drama, toodles! *doomed*

Half In Love With Elizabeth by Mystery Jets

Some things are too painful to say out loud
Well, they live behind a veil and see through a shroud
Words fly through his mouth
Like paper butterflies
Well they flutter around and put holes in your side

And he's half in love with Elizabeth
And he's half in love with you

I knew that you were thinking of him last night
'Cos I saw the blood seep down to your toes
Yes, hideaway if you must
But how can you put your trust
In a man who always sleeps in his clothes?

And he's half in love with Elizabeth
And he's half in love with you

And he's half in love with Elizabeth
And he's half in love with you

You're the sweet scent on an envelope
Or the photo in its book
But if you pin your hopes to his ???
I'm afraid the bubble will burst
I'm afraid that the bubble just might burst

The bubble will burst..



Your Call by Secondhand Serenade
(and oh yes, I really madly in love with Fall For You before this..)

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Wani Ardy's Hari Bintang Jatuh

4 more days to go!

Finally, the screening of "Kehadapan Bintang Jatuh" will be held on this Saturday (October 25th). Damn.. same date with my open house seh, I'm so sooo sorry Wani, I can't make it but anyway, goodluck tho! By the way, further info is as below:

Wani Ardy's HARI BINTANG JATUH
Hari pengakuan kita bergema...

25th October 2008
12pm-10pm

153, Malaysian Institute of Arts's Red Bungalow
Jalan Ampang (Behind Pelita Nasi Kandar KLCC)

ACOUSTIC PERFORMANCES
Para Senandung
Azmyl Yunor / Ana Raffali / Apple Juice
Bintang Batu / Captain G / From Cadillac To Geisha
Joshua Foong / Liyana Fizi (Estrella) / Rashdan Harith
Ray & Ash / Rendra Zawawi / Rina S.
The Fridays / The Siblings

POETRY RECITALS
Pencengkam Jiwa
Ashraf Ishak / Dianne Dayanna / Fynn Jamal
Nona Cici Suleiman / Shaira Amira
Wak Dol / Zahiril Adzim (the bad 'Boy' in KAMI The Movie)

VIDEO SCREENINGS
Penglipur Lara

VISUAL EXHIBITION
Penghenti Masa

SATURDAY MARKET
Pasar Sabtu

ADMISSION: RM10

or else, just go to
http://www.kehadapanbintangjatuh.blogspot.com
http://www.myspace.com/waniardy

Paranoiya I Am

"thanks for ur self-esteemed"

That's what I've received after I've wrote something when I replied back a message from some stranger on MySpace. Biasa la kalo orang anta message with pick-up lines yg dah basi, for-instance: "Hi awak ni cute la, boleh berkenalan?" (again, please define CUTE? Ugly but adorable.. thanks for the compliment!). Usually aku just ignore those kind of message, tapi tetiba tadi gagah pulak aku gi reply message mamat tu, aku pun balas..

"If you interested to be friend with me bcoz of the looks, maybe you need to think again dude.. am not as cute as u've seen/said, sgt huduh in real world. btw thx for buzzin but I dont entertain stranger.. Sorry :)

Anyway, thx again!"

Maybe I'm just being too harsh here but that is what I always do when a stranger suddenly prompt out of nowhere. Maybe sebab aku sangat paranoid, scared that someone trying to make a fool of me or make a prank/gotcha. Oh yes, I'm a queen of paranoiya.. LOL! It's not that aku ni sombong or whatever, it is just that somehow I don't simply trust in people, exspecially nowdays. I don't even trust myself. And by not trusting myself, I can hardly trust others. *sigh*

Maybe I think too much OR it isn't a matter of what I think. Maybe it's what I've done that has led me to feel the way I do now. A friend told me, at any rate, don't put too much trust in someone. You will learn to regret it if you do. And if you ever allow yourself to feel betrayed, you will then find yourself being cruelly vindictive.

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"Loneliness is the price we have to pay for being born in such modern age, so full of freedom, independence and our own egotistical selves.."

Auuw.. grrr

I know this might sound silly, well.. I dont give a damn, muahaha! I bet most of you know Metro Station with their hottest single called "Shake It", and guess what? Somehow, I love one of the voc's voice.. superb sexy seh his voice, melt melt! He's the one who's wearing the red pants in the clips, go to youtube and take a look. It isn't because I've found he's cute or whatever (because he's not to me), it's just that I love to listen to his style of singing.. sexy, grrr! Same type as the voc of Head Automatica, I used to listen to their song called "Beating Heart Baby" again and again and again 24-7. Eh kejap, pahal dedua pun dalam clips pkai red pants? Another kebetulan?? Damn, how ironic life is.... LOL

Again.. Semantic

Went to MIMOS yesterday to attend a talk on "Future of Semantic Technology" and again, need to undergo 1 more week training with MIMOSian. Here some piccies.. (sorry, cant prevent myself from taking piccies seh)

Married, Not Married and Soon To Be Married..

Disclaimer: I didn't write this. A friend posted it on her Notes @Facebook this morning. It's nice to share, it has touched my heart..

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A story about.. MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step.. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah.. blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

(From a Friend)

GORGEOUS

Semalam satu hari the word GORGEOUS stuck dalam library otak aku ni. The whole day sikit-sikit petik GORGEOUS, sikit-sikit petik GORGEOUS.. pahal? Dalam testi kat Friendster pun petik, kat MySpace pun aku sesibuk mentioned, apetah lagi kat dalam new fanaticsm aku si Facebook tu kan, haih! Chatting pun gi petik gak, onda fon pun ada sebut-sebut gak.. sms?? Ada.. ada.. (jawab dengan pnuh excited), mase sms-ing dengan Suessy, haha! Nampaknye vocab ku perlu dimeriahkan lagi, need to be more 'cherry' which is stands for CERIA aka MERIAH aka MERRIER.. *giggles*

Kesimpulannye, aku rasa aku memang GORGEOUS and i think that is why.. sekian!

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Tengah layan-layan Ghost Whisperer semalam, bole plak ade lagu Collide by Howie Day as background music....................................... goosebump! *sigh*

Sekian, Laporan Khas Puasa & Raya! ;p

Taking a break to post some new entries.. its pay back time bebeh! Banyak gle cerita tak update and i know tht no one cares even if i've updated my blog.. LOL! Like i care la kan, Ok Ok am running out of time, write Suerie write.. start up ur brain's engine and start thinking!!

1st week of Puasa.. tatau kenapa, macam agak excited nak puasa coz bila puasa means that tak lama lagi nak raya, LOL! But the funniest thing was the week before Puasa, Andy called me up and asking whether am I available next Friday (1st week of Puasa) so that we could buka puasa together with my dear princess Rusila. Then I answered, "OK, but u need to fast as well la to bebuka with us.. haha!". Kelakar plak, Andy yg non-muslim pulak yang excited planned for the meet up.. muahaha! So the next week, we met up at Mid Valley and kitorang bebuka kat San Francisco Steakhouse, buffet dia so-so jegh la but if im not mistaken the total charges is RM160++ for 3 persons. Err I dont mind at all coz it was Andy's treat, as usual.. haha! Noooooooooo im kidding Andy, I really mind actually coz u always pay for us.. haih now I need to calculate how much I owe u all this while, err masuk buku OK? Claim another err about... 10 yrs from now? Hopefully my pocket is tebal already by that time OR atleast hoping for getting a pocket tebal hubby? LOL.. nway thanks Andy and Kak Rusila, thanks for the great nite out!! Rindu mau gusipping with both of ya ;'(

2nd week of Puasa.. hurm dah tak ingat buat apa this week, yg aku ingat on Friday me and my x-schoolmates berbuka tugeder-geder kat somewhere near Sg Ramal if im not mistaken, I cant even remember what's the restaurant name, huhu! Yang sempat datang malam tu Akmar, Omei, Haza, Huda & hubby, Syida & hubby, Azri and Moon. The rest tatau ape kes, ade yang keje based kat Sabah and some were busy with something else or clashed with their schedule and etc. Time-time tu la Akmar passing kad kawen dia and lepas tu masing-masing sebok membelek album kawen Haza & Huda. Oh ya, congrats Huda sebab u gonna be a mum soon :)

3rd week of Puasa.. I had a training for the whole week kat MIMOS during the 3rd week of Puasa. Then again, Friday is the most strategic day untuk semua orang plan for berbuka. Balek-balek Jumaat, balek-balek berbuka on Jumaat.. haih! (kecoh!! padahal hari len memang tak available, LOL!) On Friday berbuka dengan the gals of 5th RC, geng-geng mase kat UM. Tapi seperti biase, bila dah keje neh susah nak gather semua skalik, sure korum x cukop *sigh* but still, meriah dan kecoh seperti biasa. Camwhoring session pun berjalan dengan lancar seperti biasa tanpa henti, muahahaha! Thanks to Chucky, Anis, Ruhil, Makmuk & tunang, Bobol & hubby, Putu & Nasrul and Amal for coming! During this Saturday, I went to Jalan TAR & Masjid India with my eldest sister and Mas for jalan-jalan carik tudungss and baju melayu anak-anak sedara aku. Gila sesak umah manusia kat sana, if I had a choice I wont go there coz I hate crowded places like that with the smells some more.. err actually the smells of fooooooooooooood!! Gila tengahari buta ade jual cempedak goreng la, pisang goreng la.. buat aku lapa jegh!! But then lalu kat satu store neh, perghh bau chocolate cake dia taleh tahan and I end up bought one, *grin*! On Sunday pulak, Wani invited me berbuka kat rumah dia kat Subang. Oh kamu sangat rugi cik Alieya for not joining us, muaahahha! Wani came out with idea supaya kami potluck, so masing-masing beli makanan dari luar tapi still ade home-made nasi lemak provided by Wani but cooked by the maid, LOL! Malam tu sudah jadik 'Chix' party sebab menu-menu kebanyakannya terdiri daripada pelbagai menu of CHICKEN, haa hamek ko.. end up jadi Chix Party!! Si Shuko plak tak henti-henti petik gitar, ngeng! Lepas bebuka and semayang, kitorang sume lepak kat hall and then sorang-sorang gi petik gitar, Wani then Shuko then Ikmal then..? Ikmal suh aku petik.. buwahhaha kejadah, aku tau petik Em C G D jegh, tu pn strum tak pass-pass lagik!! Maybe guitar wasnt meant for the girl named Suerie, so I guess the only thing that I could do is.. keep on requesting others to play for me.. bahahahha!! Tapi yang klakanye, sorang demi sorang dak-dak laki teruja nak duduk kat kerusi Ogawa si Wani, masing-masing memang kanak-kanak ribena btul la, haish! And oh ya, the guest list yg attended that day - Wani, Min, Suessy, Shuko, Ikmal, Oat, Omar and housemates Shuko with the gfsss.. I remember Nina jegh, the other girl tak sempat beramah mesra, LOL!

4rd week of Puasa.. 1st time semua orang berbuka sama-sama. Mas and Fathihah balek from Johor, Nurul balek from Perlis. Tapi sorang kakak missing in action which is Intan sebab dia outstation gi Dubai for a few months already, February taun depan baru balek sni, sian ;p huhu! Eh February?? Hadiah pelissss.. LOL! On Sunday morning, the whole family except Ayang & fam, pegi ziarah pusara arwah Bak, my late grandfather on my mum's side, kat somewhere in PJ. Then right after that, semua lepak Kerinchi berbuka kat umah Mak Aid, nenek side my mum. FYI, sepanjang-panjang minggu malas gila aku nak datang kerja. Gila tak saba nak raya, huhu! Datang kerja pun see through jegh tinguk screen PC ni.. hohohoho! On malam Raya plak, mak ajak kitorang gi Jalan TAR lagi skali, this time mak plak yang nak shopping! Shopping bunga-bungaan, very the flowery umah kami raya ni yer. Again, kenapa la aku sanggup nak join gak malam tu. Sesak gegila seh tapi seb baek la malam tu banyak pulak mamat-mamat lengchai turun Jalan TAR gak malam tu, sesi mengurangkan pahala mata berlaku.. heee! Yang pasti aku usha warganegara MALAYSIA jegh OK! And hey, finally... HARI INI HARI RAYA!! yeay!!!!! (adeh sorry, memang tatau kenapa this year excited terlebih, baju raya pun sampai 6 pasang.. ape kes -_-" )




And when Raya has finally arrived.. oh agak meriah and duet pun agak 'meriah' keluar dengan lajunya as im working now, so taun ni aku jadi tangan yang menghulur rather than menjadi tangan yang menerima, that part is no fun! Haih.. AKAN TETAPI the sisters still bagi gak la duet raya kat I ni kan hehe, wajib tu wajib as long as im still not married yet! Thanks loads sisters heeee..




p/s: to all the Muslims who have been fasting for a month, kudos to you guys and xspecially YOU ;p clap clap!!