Celik

Hari ini bila kau rasa
kaulah orang paling malang dalam dunia,
sila tolong buka mata
dan lihat dunia lain selain dunia kau.. seluas-luasnya.

Kau bukan orang paling malang dalam dunia.

Manusia Berlagak Tuhan

Banyaknya manusia yang berlagak Tuhan. Jatuh hukum ikut suka. Kalau tidak, masa kan janin yang baru dilahirkan boleh dibuang macam sampah. Nyawa tak ada harga barangkali di zaman millenium ni. "Kau anak haram, baik mati. Hidup pun tak guna, tanggung malu seumur hidup", pasti ada manusia yang begitu. Keji.

Banyaknya manusia yang berlagak Tuhan. Jatuh hukum ikut suka. Kalau tidak, masa kan terdapat desas desus mengatakan tragedi ribut taufan yang melanda bazaar ramadhan di Jasin baru-baru ini adalah bencana yang Allah turunkan sebagai balasan. Wallahualam, tapi wajar ke tatkala orang lain ditimpa musibah, kita di sini sibuk nak mempersoalkan kenapa dan mengapa Allah menurunkan bencana sebegitu rupa? Siapa kita nak membuat andaian atas tiap kejadian yang berlaku? Aduh, manusia..

Allah menduga bukan sahaja golongan yang beriman kepadaNya, juga termasuk yang kafir. Allah mahu melihat kepada siapa kita kembali pada saat kebutuhan. Dan Allah juga menciptakan kesabaran pada hamba hambaNya. Samada kita patuh atau tidak. Semua itu ada penjelasannya.

Al-Fathihah buat mangsa tragedi yang terkorban.

Satu lagi kisah manusia yang mensabitkan dosa pahala ikut suka hati. Minggu lalu, aku naik teksi ke Desa Pandan. Masuk-masuk teksi saja, sejuk hati mendengar alunan ayat-ayat Al-Quran di radio, dipasang oleh si pemandu teksi yang berkopiah. Sebaik bertolak, ditanya aku siapa gerangan si qari yang membaca. Jujur aku jawab aku tak kenal, rupanya imam besar di Masjidil Haram. Terlintas dalam hati, "Kalau bab-bab ni, Abah sure tau". Tak lama kemudian, sewaktu teksi melewati pasar malam di sekitar Desa Pandan, si pemandu teksi tadi tiba-tiba mengeluh.

"Kenapalah orang muda sekarang ni ramai tak suka solat kan?".

Aku mengiyakan sambil menjawab, "Itu la.. orang sekarang ambil mudah dosa pahala".

"Tengok tu, inilah sebabnya Allah tak suka pasar. Awak tahu tak Allah tak suka pasar?". Sekali lagi dia mengeluh dan mengucap panjang sambil menunding jari ke arah segerombolan manusia di sekitar tapak pasar malam tu tadi.

Allah tak suka pasar? Kali ini aku was-was dengan statement si pemandu teksi itu tadi, lantas aku balas laju. "Allah tak suka pasar? Isk pakcik ni, mana ada. Solat atau tak tu terletak atas individu tu sendiri, bukan terletak atas pekerjaan dia. Mana pakcik tahu diorang tak solat, pandai-pandai je pakcik ni", aku cuba membangkang dalam nada berseloroh.

"Haa, isteri saya pun tak percaya Allah tak suka pasar. Nabi pun ada cakap dalam hadis yang Allah tak suka pasar", tegas si pemandu teksi.

"Isk yeke pakcik? Cuba pakcik bagi tau saya hadis yang mana, tak pernah pulak saya dengar so far", aku berseloroh lagi tapi kali ini sedikit sinis. Tak pula diberi petikan hadis yang dimaksudkan. Pelik, tadi beriya benar kata ada. Aku hilang ingatan apa topik seterusnya, sebab malas pulak aku nak melayan.

Malam tu, waktu lepak di ruang tamu dengan Abah, aku bertanyakan siapa nama imam besar di Masjidil Haram. Guess what? Haremmm jauh beza dari nama yang dipetik oleh si pemandu teksi siang tadi. Mentang-mentanglah aku tak tau siapa, kau suka suki petik nama ya? Ada hati pulak tu nak accuse orang tak bersolat sembarangan. Inilah dia contoh manusia yang berlagak Tuhan. Bila mata tak nampak amal orang, dikatanya tak bersolat bagai.

Ada manusia yang masuk syurga-Nya kerana dosa yang telah dia lakukan.
Ada manusia yang masuk neraka-Nya kerana pahala yang telah dia lakukan.

Bermaksud, setelah berbuat dosa, seseorang itu bertaubat nasuha dan meninggalkan segala larangan-Nya serta kembali beriman kepada Allah. Golongan ini adalah antara yang dijanjikan syurga, insyaAllah.

Ada juga yang masuk neraka kerana amal yang dibuat. Beribadah tapi tidak ikhlas, dicanang-canangkan. Atau diri dianggap orang alim, sempurna tapi yang lain dikeji sebab tak beramal sepertimana dia. Bak kata orang, sepatutnya bila kanan berbuat kebaikan, yang kiri tak tahu menahu. Wallahualam.

Satu jari kita tunding orang, selebihnya tunding pada kita. Nak perbetulkan orang boleh, tapi biar molek caranya. Pendek kata, sendiri mau ingat.

Jangan berlagak Tuhan.

Flips and Drops

Went to Genting last weekend. Nothing much less different than before up there, except that I rode the roller coaster alone for the first time without a company. And for the first time as well, I kept my eyes wide open from start till the end, yeah surprisingly! Seriously before this tak pernah tak tutup mata. Pastu seboleh-bolehnya akan grip safety harness tu sekuat-kuat hati macam tanak lepas, punya la takut sampaikan suara pun tak berbunyi.

I am terrified of roller coasters and scared to death but somehow I don't know, this time was different. I just wanted to give it a try, wanna know how it 'truly' feels. Freaking out? Ofcourse, but I don't think too much about it. Imagination can be super wild you know, especially while waiting for your turn.. gosh! By the way, I chosed to sit in the middle, alone. Still don't have enough guts to sit at the front.. yet, hiew.

Well? It wasn't that bad at all pun! Never thought it would be so much fun and thrilled at the same time. Ingatkan sure dah pengsan macam separuh mati, rupanya tak pun. It went so quickly and by the time it was over, I was like, "Eh, dah habis? Tu je? Come on, I want more pleaseeeee". Eceh, berlagak tak ingat! Let see now, I've tried Solero Shot, I've went for Skytrex, I've rode roller coaster alone with eyes wide open, I've done wall climbing. Dang, these are kind of personal achievement to me, as I'm scared of height and speed. Hee :D

By the way, I've learned that we wouldn't know what is waiting for us behind the flips and drops, and how does it really feels like going up and down the steep hills.. until we went on it. Or in other words, until we have experienced it ourselves. Freaking out is normal, but you need to face your fear and learn to deal with it somehow. Same goes in life, just give it a shot. Don't worry, you'll be just fine. "Nothing can cross the path of our destiny without leaving some mark on it forever". Aite? *wink*

Life is a roller coaster ride
It brings you up slowly
then shoots you like a rocket towards the ground
It twists you and it shakes you before it turns you upside down
You can't see what's around the corner
And you can't look back, so just live it up and feel the rush

Tik Tok

It's nearly end of June already. Gosh, how time flies!

We are already half way through the year, yet there some of us who still let their lives pass them by; by did nothing, achieved nothing, contributed nothing, gained nothing. Why don't we do something.. something that will brings more meaning to our lives for the next half year, shall we? *smile*

Time is like the wind..
It lifts the light and leaves the heavy.

by Doménico Cieri Estrada

Updated on June 22nd, 3:44 PM:

Baru je cakap "how time flies", suddenly minggu ni sudah tukar la dey. "Waktu berjalan, lambat menyusur.. dalam titian takdir hidupku", ececeh boleh pulak tetiba keluar lirik lagu sentap, waduh waduh. Kenapa rasa macam dah hari Rabu??? Baru hari Selasa je kot T__T tidaaaaaaaaaak! *kedebush, terjun tingkap*

Kalau tak dinanti, tak sedar laju,
Kalau dah menanti, tak agak-agak tahap kelembapan.
Hujung bulan memang cenggitu,
Menanti depan ATM dengan penuh harapaaaaaaaan.

Yang Merindui Ringgit Malaysia (RM),
Cik Suerieramramram

The Long and Winding Road

Some people try to turn back their odometers.
Not me.. I want people to know why I look this way.
I've traveled a long way and some of the roads weren't paved.

A friend told me once, straight roads are the ones that we always took, the one that we are most comfortable with. And I am afraid that it is true, indeed. We choose not to take the curvy roads as to skip the headache. We hate the bumpy and unpaved roads. Therefore we decide to turn back whenever we meet one - just because we simply don't want ourselves get into trouble or get hurt.

No matter how much time will be wasted,
how much will the fuel cost.. we don't care.
The only thing we know is that we want to have a safe journey.

I guess I have experienced both (kot.. LOL)
The straight, plain and boring - and the long winding roads.

Give A Chance and Listen

You see; you can find the good in everybody, if you just give them a chance. The benefit of the doubt. Sometimes, people disappoint you. Sometimes they surprise you. But you never really get to know them until... you listen for what's in their hearts. That's what we should do for them. So for you skeptics out there, prepare to be surprised.


"The Truth Doesn't Make A Noise"
One Tree Hill Season 2 Episode 2

You Know You Are A Woman When..

You know you are a woman when..
As a girl you used to dress for the boys.
As a woman you will dress for other women.

You know you are a woman when..
As a girl you used to look for a job that will make you happy.
As a woman you will find happiness in your work, whatever it is.

You know you are a woman when..
As a girl you used to go for the cutest guy a girl like you could find.
As a woman you will go for the smartest guy a woman like you can find.

You know you are a woman when..
As a girl you used to get by with fast food, slimming belts and four hours of sleep.
As a woman you will watch your diet, exercise regularly and make sure you rest well.

You know you are a woman when..
As a girl you used to shop, shop and, er, shop.
As a woman you will earn, budget, shop and save.

You know you are a woman when..
As a girl you used to argue or give in; bluster and fight.
As a woman you will speak up or compromise; listen and apologise.

CLEO March 2010 Edition

Much or Less

Eat too much
Eat too less
Both do no good.

Work too much
Work too less
Both do no good.

Rest too much
Rest too less
Both do no good.

Talk too much
Talk too less
Both do no good.

Think too much
Think too less
Both do no good.

Care too much
Care too less
Both do no good.

Worry too much
Worry too less
Both do no good.

Love too much
Love too less
Both do no good.


MODERATE is the keyword here, remember.

Puas?

Bukan senang nak puaskan hati semua orang.
Nak puaskan hati sendiri pun susah, ini kan pula hati orang.
Betul tidak?

Kalau kau cuba cari erti dalam sesuatu yang sama sekali tidak bererti pada kau, memang kau takkan mengerti.

Kalau kau cuba fahami akan maksudnya tanpa tahu apa isi kandungnya, memang kau takkan faham.

Tapi mungkin kalau kau amati dengan hati, jiwai dengan rasa, mungkin.. mungkin erti itu akan terjelas dengan sendirinya.

Atau.. mungkin saja kau takkan pernah mengerti,
kau takkan pernah fahami,
terus bingung, sampai bila-bila.


Whatever-lah.

It is all a case of mind over matter.
I don't mind and you don't matter.

What IF

taken on December 22, 2009
bukit MARDI, UPM

'Follow your instinct' they say..

What if.. what you feel is an instinct is not an instinct
What if.. it's something else altogether
Or it is merely.. not an instinct..
but a fictional creation of your imaginary mind.

WHAT IF, is a question that comes up all the time when a decision is to be made. It is a question that always lingers in the air, in the back of our mind. An endless questions, and the answers are never absolute because we will never know what would have been if we choose this one instead of any other. And then again, we will start wondering, if we have made the right choice.

See..? It pops up everytime.
As I said, it's gonna be an endless question.

Whatever it is, there are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad where we need to make a decision and make a "move". Else, we will be stuck in NEVERLAND for years.

But again, what if.. we do nothing? What would happen then?
What if.. by not making a "move", is the best choice?
What if.. the NEVERLAND is already written as your final destination?
Again.. what if?

It's only a twisted-mind game, we're the prisoner of our own thoughts.
Don't get fooled!

Thanks For The Boost!

Suessy's comment on my Facebook status. Gosh, I just love every single word that she wrote!

♥ you, Suessy!!! *bighug&smooch*

Emotion-less

Blog ni makin hari makin 'kosong'
Rindu entri yang terus dari hati
Sekarang banyak merewang kosong
Sekadar makanan ringan minda yang bernama 'cekedis'.. benci
Emosi itu perlu untuk menulis
Apa aku ni dah tak ada perasaan ke sekarang?

Ah.. bencilah bila tersekat-sekat ni
Benci, tahu?


3:24 AM
November 15, 2009

I Am Worthy and Valuable

Who wants this 20 dollar bill
By Paulo Coelho

Cassan Said Amer tells a story about a lecturer who began a seminar holding up a 20 dollar bill, and asking:

"Who wants this 20 dollar bill?"

Several hands went up, but the lecturer said:

"Before handing it over, there’s something I must do."

He furiously crushed it, and asked again:

"Who still wants this bill?"

The hands continued raised.

"And what if I do this?"

He threw it against the wall, letting it fall to the floor, kicked it, stamped in it and again held up the bill - all dirty and crumpled. He repeated the question, and the hands continued to be held high.

"You mustn’t ever forget this scene", said the lecturer.

"No matter what I do with this money, it’ll still be a 20 dollar bill. Many times in our lives, we are crushed, stamped on, kicked, maltreated, offended; however, in spite of this, we are still worth the same."


Very truthful. Thanks to Nizam for sharing this.
And kebetulan tadi aku terbaca blog Falai, bestfriend Wani. He wrote this in the end of his recent entry which somehow can conclude this post, as morale of the story :)

"No matter how often life kicks you in the ass, and you stumble and fall, it is how you pick yourself up that matters."

Laungan Keramat

Malam ini malam merdeka. Sambutan tak semeriah tahun-tahun sebelumnya, menghormati bulan mulia, bulan Ramadhan. Jumaat lepas, seorang teman yang bukan berkerakyatan Malaysia menghulur tangan kepada hampir semua teman termasuk aku sambil mengucapkan "Have a great weekend and Happy Independence Day", aku senyum sambil berterima kasih. Kemudian dia ucapkan ucapan yang sama kepada si polan 'bertuah' yang satu ini, biar aku panggil A (bukan nama sebenar). Si A tetiba tergelak, mungkin dirasakan lucu dengan perihal tersebut sambil berkata, "Here we don't shake hand and wish everybody during Independence Day, usually Malaysian don't give damn about it". Auch, sedih aku dengar kata-kata macam tu. Salah satu rakyat Malaysia yang tak sedar dek untung. Bayangkan, orang luar jauh lebih teruja menjelang Hari Kemerdekaan Malaysia berbanding rakyat Malaysia sendiri, sadis kan?

Tayanglah Hati Malaya beribu kali pun, percayalah.. takkan menitik setitik pun airmata si empunya hati bebal, takkan sayu hati mereka-mereka ini menonton, takkan terusik hati mereka-mereka ini dengan kepayahan orang-orang dulu kita memperjuangkan kemerdekaan sendiri, takkan hiba hati-hati mereka ini memikirkan Tunku bertebal muka meminta Merdeka. Sadis kan?

Letihlah
letihlah Onn menelan caci maki
mengunyah hamun
mengait segala bangsa Malaya

Bazirlah
bazirlah nenek moyang bergolok gadai
bersorak genang
mendukung wira atas bahu para

Penatlah
penatlah Tunku turun naik pesawat
menembus mega
menggapai benda nama ‘merdeka’


click: Benda Nama 'Merdeka'
Wani Ardy

Dua telinga ni pernah jadi saksi kepada suara-suara sumbang yang mempersoalkan 1Malaysia. Kenapa ada jenis manusia ni yang suka mencari apa yang buruk dari memandang apa yang baik? Tak paham aku, ada jegh silap yang nak dipetik. 1Malaysia tu sebenarnya dah lama terjalin, cuma sekarang kita makin menjarak.. makin melupa. Kalau tak percaya, tanyalah orang tua memasing tentang saat-saat getir ketika kejadian berdarah 13 Mei dulu. Ini pengalaman Mak sendiri. Mak cakap, ketika Cina dan Melayu bergaduh waktu 13 Mei dulu, sebenarnya bukanlah semua Cina dan Melayu bercakaran begitu. Pada masa tu, yang Melayu pantang berjumpa yang Cina dan yang Cina pantang berjumpa yang Melayu dan waktu tu sebenarnya masih ada Melayu dan Cina yang tetap utuh berkawan baik, masih anggap masing-masing bersaudara. Maka, menurut kata Mak lagi, bagi mengaburi mata pihak-pihak tertentu, keluarga si Melayu akan tolong menyorokkan keluarga si Cina di rumah mereka dan keluarga si Cina pulak menyorokkan keluarga si Melayu di rumah mereka bertujuan mengelakkan kawannya tertangkap. Tengok, orang dulu kita dulunya sanggup memperjudikan nyawa sendiri nak melindungi kawan yang berlainan kaum. Kita? Haih, tak payah la cakap. Sedangkan sesama Melayu pun saling menikam, bukan belakang.. menikam dari depan pun ada, tanpa segan-segan.

Untung sesetengah kita ni masih berkawan tanpa mengira kaum, kan? Untung sesetengah kita ni tak ada sikap membeda-bedakan manusia mengikut warna kulit. I got lots of friends that has been surrounded by Malay's community since they were young like Jesse, Michelle, Kimberly and lot more. So kengkawan diorang mostly 1Malaysia which means majmuk. Dan kalau dengar diorang berbahasa Melayu, walaweh.. macam kita jugak. Hari tu, Kim nak cakap yang dia dah bosan makan Big Apple but instead of saying that dia dah bosan, dia cakap.. "Eee, aku dah JELAK lah makan Big Apple ni". Huish, aku pun jarang guna jelak as for bosan atau muak, huhu. Cuma kalau part peribahasa jegh kena perbetulkan once in a while, haha. That day, Kim ada tersalah petik "Kambing Korban" instead of "Kambing Hitam". And there's one thing that I can hardly forget, Andy's silly question.. LOL! Andy once asked me, "Err may I know, who are Zahir and Batin? Why everybody asking for their apologee during Hari Raya?". Cute huh? :) OK enough, panjang membebel.


Selamat menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan yang ke-52, Malaysia.
Semoga tetap utuh sebagai 1Malaysia.
Merdeka.. Merdeka.. Merdeka..

Khutbah Jumaat

Entri Repekan Time Bosan bersama Cik Bella kat Facebook semalam sama sekali kontra habis dengan repekan aku pagi ni bersama Cik Ikim. Ikim wrote this on her YM status this morning..


"Rabbi yassir wala tu'assir, Rabbi tammim bil khair"


suerie:
Doa apa tu ikim?

ikim:
Doa memudahkan segala urusan.
:D

suerie:
Owh yeke? Jangan lupa seribu dinar jugak. Doa supaya Dia beri kita jalan keluar dari permasalahan yang kita tak boleh nak selesaikan or rumit, sebab meaning ayat tu camni..

Dan sesiapa yang bertaqwa kepada Allah (dengan mengerjakan suruhanNya dan meninggalkan laranganNya), nescaya akan dijadikan baginya jalan keluar (dari segala perkara yang menyusahkannya). Serta memberinya rezeki dari jalan yang tidak terlintas hatinya.

Dan (ingatlah), sesiapa berserah diri bulat-bulat kepada Allah, maka Allah cukupkan baginya (untuk menolong dan menyelamatkannya). Sesungguhnya Allah tetap melakukan segala perkara yang di kehendakiNya. Allah telahpun menentukan kadar dan masa bagi berlakunya tiap-tiap sesuatu.

ikim:
Owh, sedapnye maksud ayat ni.

suerie:
Kan? Kalau ingat meaning, time baca sure rasa macam aman jegh.
Anyway, pendek jegh ayat tu, hafal jegh.

ikim:
Eh, betul tu. Baca doa kena tau meaning, baru best.
;)

suerie:
Semalam aku lupa nak puasa, bila kau tanya baru teringat, haha!

ikim:
Lah, takpe.
Puasa bulan ramadhan.

suerie:
Pastu kelmarin aku tak baca pun Yaasin tiga kali, baca dua kali jegh. Sebab masuk 2nd round, aku asyik tersalah baca jegh. Time tu dah kul 10 lebih.. mengantuk sudah.

ikim:
Aku pulak, semalam bantai tidur!
ngeeeeeeeee~

suerie:
hahaha.. baguih. Malam nisfu aritu kan, konon niat nak bangun solat malam tapi elok jegh aku tidur, huhu. Tapi aku rasa Tuhan tu memang nak kejut aku bangun la because tetiba pukul 3 pagi aku terjaga tak semena-mena. But then, aku bangun jap tutup a/c then tidur balik. Hampeh kan -_-"

ikim:
T_____T
Sama la kita suerie. Malam tu aku letih gile, tidur dengan baju kurung pegi keje. Tapi pukul 3 bangun balik, tuka baju and basuh muke, boleh pulak tidur balik.
T______T
Owh, banyaknya alasan hamba Allah ni

suerie:
Hint suruh kita bangun solat malam tapi kita hentam tidur balik huhu

ikim:
T______T
haih.............

suerie:
Sebenarnya dari semalam petang benda ni dok berlegar-legar dalam kepala aku ni. I thought nak blog pasal menda ni semua sebab aku ada baca kat somewhere artikel pasal ni

ikim:
Pasal pe?

suerie:
Kisah seorang hamba Allah ni, dia tak mahu diselamatkan oleh bot penyelamat masa banjir kilat. Dia cakap, Allah akan selamatkan dia. So, everytime ada org datang nak selamatkan dia, dia tolak.. sampai la akhirnya dia mati. Then, dia kena soal dengan malaikat..

"Kenapa engkau biarkn dirimu mati begitu saja. Tuhan telah menghulurkan bantuan dalam pelbagai bentuk untuk selamatkan engkau, akan tetapi tiap kalinya juga engkau tolak."

suerie:
Meaning, dia tak nampak semua bantuan yang datang tu sebenarnya datang dari Allah tapi dalam pelbagai rupanya. So sama la macam kita, kadang-kadang kita tak notice benda yg dihadapkan depan kita tu actually salah satu bentuk pertolongan or peringatan dari Dia. Sometimes kita mengeluh instead of bersyukur, kan? *sigh*. Tetiba bertazkirah pulak aku pepagi Jumaat ni, khutbah Jumaat habis aku ni, haha.

ikim:
Owh.. tazkirah yang menginsafkan aku
I mean kita.

suerie:
Tazkirah yang diuja oleh ikim
:D

ikim:
.....
Boleh tak aku berfikir macam ni
Sekurangnya, aku ada niat tapi iman yang tentukan
T____T

suerie:
Iman yang tentukan apa?

ikim:
Kenapa kita tak terima pertolongan Allah

suerie:
Bukan iman tapi hati. Hati kan 'akar' segala perkara. Sebab tu masa peristiwa Israk Mikraj, 'hati' Nabi dibersihkan.

Datang malaikat Jibril membawanya dan membelah dadanya. Hati baginda dibersihkan dengan air zam-zam, dibuang ketul hitam, diisinya dengan iman dan hikmah, kemudian ditutup kembali dan dimeterikan dengan `khatimin nubuwwah.'

taken from net

suerie:
Sebab buruk baik manusia mula dari hati. That's why kalau kita buat dosa, satu titik hitam terbentuk pada hati kita. Wallahualam. Kau jangan la pecaya 100% apa aku cakap, aku pun ingat-ingat lupa.. hihi. Rajin-rajin nanti kau google la. :D

ikim:
Tapi betul tu suerie. Aku pon dok rasa Dia selalu bagi apa kita nak. Nak bangun tahajud, nak rezeki, semua dia bagi. especially time nak buat baik. Dia bagi jalan kat kita tapi kita tak amek. Duit nak pulak, lambat sikit, mengeluh.. huhuhuhu.

suerie:
Yup.. Pastu if kita ada buat dosa, Dia bagi 'cash' jegh balasan kat kita, Dia tarik nikmat yang diberi satu per satu. Ada tak ko rasa macam tu?

ikim:
Memang pun

suerie:
Usually kalau aku kena timpa masalah, pertama skali aku fikir.. I must have done something wrong. Actually Dia bagi peluang untuk kita betulkan salah kita but disebabkan kita ni terlampau leka so Dia takde cara lain untuk sedarkan kita other than 'slap' us straight in the face.

ikim:
hmm.. true enough

suerie:
Ikim, kita dapat pahala tak bercakap isu ilmiah camni?
hihihihihi
Harapkan pahala takpe kan? haha

ikim:
:p
Semoga ada berkat *wink*

suerie:
amin :D

ikim:
ameennn



Just right after I had this conversation with Ikim @YM, I've tried a few times to log into Facebook but failed. Instead, I got this error message below. Now I wonder, adakah ini salah satu reminder dalam bentuk yang sebegini rupa dari Dia supaya suruh aku buat kerja instead of beronggeng sakan bermain comment di Facebook kat office di hari Jumaat yang mulia ini? Sangat tepat kena muka, padan la muka! *dang*

The Untitled

All this while, I thought I have no interest in abstract paintings and much more interested in pencil sketch. I always thought that abstract paintings are too complicated to be understood and most of us having the same thought I bet. Actually, it shouldn't be like that. The whole point of creating an abstract painting is that it represent something that only it can, in a way that cannot be put into words. Some of us are just not good in words, so they use this medium of paint to express their feelings, to let go their anger, to document their journey of life. All the subjects, symbols and the choice of colours are uniquely bring meaning to the artist. So it's OK if you are unable to understand the 'stories' behind an abstract painting as only the artist could. Abang Fathul once said, "If I ask you to draw the most beautiful sun in the world, how will it looks like? Should you draw the most beautiful sun in the world from your point of view OR from the view of million people's eyes in this world?". He said, we need not try too hard to satisfy others or trying to impress others with our paintings. We need to be honest with ourselves, we need to believe in ourselves. There is no such thing as restrictions, right or wrong, do's or dont's, likes or dislikes.. just let the mind takes control and do the work.

ANYWAY, I haven't touch any brushes since Abang Fathul's class ended. I was thinking that I should try to come up with my very own first individual painting. So last Sunday, I paid a little visit to Art Friend at the Gardens and bought a set of brushes, a mini set of acrylic colours and a 9 x 12 canvas pad (gesso primed). At first, thought of buying a stretched canvas but ah well, tunggu sampai dah pandai kot.. kang membazir. Then, wallaaaa.. last night I have done two paintings, err actually one of them is an accidental painting, hohoho! Actually macam ni, I mixed up the colours that I was using for the painting atas penutup kotak kasut. After I've done with my painting (the first one), I was about to kemas everything and suddenly rasa gatal-gatal tangan to play around with the leftover colours. At last, end up jadi accidental painting.. LOL!

Abang Fathul said every painting must has a name but I can't think of any at this moment. Let them remain as The Untitled first, OK? :)

Updated: "Fire Scars" and "Beautiful Sun of Millions", yes that are the title given. And owh, other than brushes I also used plastic and unused name card for my tools. Experimental habis la konon.. haha!

Capital P

Thoughts free flow try to consume myself in this
I'm not faithless.. just paranoid of getting lost
or that.. I might lose

So I Thought by Flyleaf

Putting back these thick "layers" is not an easy thing to do. Too many "clothes" covering me by now. Yet somehow I am feeling more "comfortable" that way. "Unzip" me and tell me what do you see in me behind these thick "layers" of "clothes". Perhaps you might find other things about me that you like.. the "naked" me.

Would you dare to "unzip" me?

enLIGHTenment

Should we be afraid of the dark? Somehow I think it's not the darkness that terrifies us, it's the territory of the unknown that scares us. We feel more comfortable with things that are familiar to us, the things that we are able to see and feel, the things that we understand and comprehend. The unfamiliar though - the darkness, would make us feel so vulnerable and unsecure for not knowing what exactly to expect. Where are we heading to, or will we knock into each other's head while trying to find our way out, or will we fall into a deep hole that might be just right in front of us, OR..what else? Well, here where imagination comes to take place. Seems like without light, everything is new to us, which most of us, are afraid of it - the territory of the unknown, it's the unpredictability we hate.

Tapi, Dia kan ada?
To lead us through the unknown of this world,
through the blackness of the winding roads,
lifting the fog that we may see.

While the sun in the morning brings light and hopes,
just have faith, we need not be afraid of the dark.

related quote: Take A Shot




p/s: Frankly speaking, I miss Ramadhan. Don't you?

Global Spread

Just now one of my colleague told me that this morning ERA (radio station) made a random survey among their callers about Influenza H1N1 virus. Rupanya ada jugak warga Malaysia ni yang tatau tentang kewujudan virus H1N1 ni. Can you believe it? Aku tatau la orang tu duduk celah hutan mana, aku ni yang dicop as "tak mengambil tau hal semasa dunia" oleh Abah pun tau OK. Pengakuan ikhlas orang tu langsung tak boleh diterima.. haih!

And talking about H1N1, eventhough belum melibatkan kematian lagi kat Malaysia ni but still, the fact that almost everyday a new case has been confirmed positive for H1N1, it's scared enough to make us all worried. Yesterday, another case has been confirmed as H1N1, bringing the total number of cases in the country to 80. It spreading too fast to count now globally, Nauzubillah..

Meanwhile, Johor has reported its first confirmed Influenza A (H1N1) case of a 19-year-old female student who returned from Melbourne via Changi Airport Singapore on flight SQ0238 on June 20..... Dr Robiah said the student’s 16-year-old brother and sister, 17, are studying at Sekolah Datuk Jaafar and SMK Infant Jesus Convent respectively.

quoted from The Star Online

FYI, SMK Infant Jesus Convent is where my 4th sister's teaching. So she's now being quarantined at home for a week, poor her. Hopefully tader pape, amin! Scarry kan? Nak pergi memana pun takut, xspecially crowded places. Maybe we all should start to wear mask as precaution kalau nak pergi memana, xspecially for those who are taking public transportation to work. Perlu tak jadi paranoid tetime macam ni? For instance kan, right now I'm having runny nose and mild-fever.. should I become paranoid bertempat and go to see the doctor? Should I? Or adakah saya demam kerana I had too much durian? Hurmm.. *think hard*

Well, I think it is because of the durian.. and the weather
(Ya Allah, jauhilah aku dari segala penyakit berbahaya, amin!)

Just FYI, the symptoms of H1N1 are:
- fever
- cough
- sore throat
- runny or stuffy nose
- body aches
- headache
- chills
- fatigue


Latest info on HOW TO DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN NORMAL FLU and H1N1 FLU - taken from Chuck's blog

Take A Shot

This is something that I have been wanting to write for some time - Solero Space Shot: Take A Shot. And what is it all about? Well, I'll update this entry soon, still tengah buat karangan panjang ni :)

**this part has been added on May 22, 2009**

After a week, I still haven't update this entry yet as promised. I will but I can't promise when is that.. it could be by end of this week, OR by early of next week, OR next month.. OK, I don't know, I just can't tell yet. I guess I need an interpreter, a brain interpreter to interprete thoughts and ideas into wording so it could help me to speed up the process of 'mengarang'.. kan senang? Anyway, recently I watched an Indonesian film called "Cinta Itu Merah". Sama sekali aku blur dengan jalan cerita and dialog-dialog dia, maybe sebab terlampau.. puitis? Ah nevermind. But then, there's one part that really caught my attention.. puisi yang di'dialog'kan oleh watak Raisa towards the end of the story.

youtube: Cinta Itu Merah

Tidak selalu kegelapan
yang menghantarkan seseorang pada kematian
Kadang kilatan cahaya juga menyesatkan
dan menghantarkan pada ketiadaan, pada kematian..

Kematian cuma rekayasa pikiran
Kerna bila kita ingin kematian, silakan hidup..
Tapi bersembunyi dari merahnya cahaya

Gue udah lelah bersembunyi
Gue siap menghadapi cahaya itu
Dan kali ini gue ngak mungkin tersesat
bahkan dalam gelap sekalipun