Bebel-ism: Weekend Sindrome

Since the past few days, kepala ni bingit sangat and rasa gila tense kat area mata. Kalo dengar benda jatuh atas lantai pun, berdesing sampai ke kepala bingit dia. Dengan rasa macam nak demamnya, dengan everyday-sickness wajib aku lagi which is seseme, suara pun dah sengau-sengau dah ni. Kalo nak onda fon pun siap kena bagi intro dulu, "Sorry, suara sengau sket..". Haih, semalam ingat nak amek MC tapi tak jadi, pagi ni pun terpikir nak amek MC tapi tak jadik jugak sebab teringat nak kena tolong backup and configure laptop baru boss aku, aku pikir "Taperlah.. sok dah weekend dah pun, weekend sindrome bebeh!". So it's ok sebab yang penting, next week I wanna take 2 days off tuk settlekan hal pasal fees tuk master, dah la 13th Dec dah nak register but medical check up belum buat-buat lagi, KWSP pun tak pegi-pegi lagi. Dah la fees tuk new intake ni dah naik, RM200 per credit hours.. gila la beb! Tapi akak aku nye course lagi hebat, 4K ke 5K ntah per semester sebab dia nak further dalam Chemi jugak kot, memang ah kan.. mane de by coursework mende alah tu. Naseb aku buat by coursework.. weee -_-"

So nanti aku, Qiey and Maz.. akan jadik coursemate la after this, best best ade geng, yeay!! Dulu roomate, skang nak jugak melekat lagi, jadik coursemate plak, haha! And aku rasa plan Putu nak join the club next semester memang tinggal harapan jegh la because she just found out that she just got pregnant for 5 to 6 weeks. Well, congratulations Putu and Nasrul! Sure baby korang nanti montel-montel kan kan kan? Maaf, cerita tergendala dengan siaran iklan tersebut.. huhu.

I think 2009 will be a very hectic year for me. Work.. study.. office works.. assignments.. err nitemare? :D Nahh.. try to look back at the positive side, atleast I'll be fully occupied through out the weekends, aite? If now I'm always complaining about my weekend boredom sindrome, well I dont think that I will be complaining about it anymore by next year. I think most probably I will keep on complaining about how less time I have spend for "Me Day" and will be screaming out for mental help "mayday mayday.. I need more rest, I need more sleep, mayday mayday!!". I really do hope that I can cope up with all this.. yeah, hopefully

For the time being, sementara I still have plenty of time to update my dearly blog (kononnya.. haha), aku nak buat task yang Chuck bagi: To list down the top 10 people you consider date-/molest/maul-/snog-worthy. Dude, this is a tough job, 10 peeps? I dont even have one to begin with but well, since ko list down sume celebrity jegh, so i'll do the same ;p boo-yah

(in alphabetically order)

1- Chris Daughtry

Sebab Chuck letak DC, so I need to put Daughtry in the list.. haha

2- Hayden Christensen

Have no idea wth is he? Well, he is the lead actor in Jumper :) comel!

3- Jesse Metcalfe
The hottie in John Tucker Must Die and pembetulan, bukan dalam One Tree Hill's series but in Desperate Housewives as Eve's gardener.. damn, I know he's Eve's toyboy but I thought I've seen him in OTH as well.. muahaha sesuka hati aku petik, btw thanks boo for the highlight! Pape pun.. melt melt!

4- John Cusack

Yeah I know that he's too old for me but h*ll, he has a pair of pretty eyes dont ya think so? Serendipity here I come.. weehee!

5- Johnny Depp

Agreed with Chuck! This one must be in the list. Btw have you watched The Waiting Room before? Aku rasa aku suka kalo dia pegang watak2 psycho ni.. hoho

6- Jude Law

No one else.. I want him and only him!! (with more hairs pls, not bald one, seems like he's getting bald) Just look at his gorgeous eyes... grrrr!!

7- Keanu Reeves

He could be mysterious sometimes.. just like Johny Depp and Naohito

8- Naohito Fujiki

One of my fav Japanese actor. Please watch Love Revolution (2000). FYI dulu mase skola-skola till matriks, aku sangat fanatic dengan Japanese series, sampai album Utada Hikaru pun aku beli.. LOL

9- Nicholas Rogers

aka Tarabas in Cave of The Golden Roses.. remember Fantaghiro? childhood story.. I know I know -_-"

10- Pete (Fall Out Boys)

Uhhuh, he's weird and I love weirdo.. ;p

Till 'Bored' Do Us Part

FYI dear readers (if there is la kan.. muahaha), I have deleted my Myspace account yesterday but only just now it has been officially err.. disappeared? Huhu.. and oh ya, ni bukan stok-stok "emo and delete" punye style yer, not like this one particular guy. Emo sepuluh kali, delete account sepuluh kali kot. H*ll no, bukan bukan.. muahahaha, opss sorry if terase ;p. Ok ok back to the story line, actually I've been thinking about deleting my account since last year but I didn't because of a very simple reason - friends. But now, since like most of my friends have already been shifted to Facebook, so what's the point for keeping it, aite? Plus since everybody is so enjoying ber-Facebook-ing right now (including me), I rarely log in to Myspace except to delete those annoying and geli-geli messanges that I've received from some weirdo/strangers. Besides, 5 years record tanpa kalah for maintaining the account? I think I had enough kot.. bak kata Erik, dah mensampah dah dengan Myspace ni. Hello-goodbye to Myspace then.. toodles! *giggles*

Slow Me Down & Show Me How

Just read through the lyrics ok, maybe you will see yourself in it, who knows.. because I did. Well, here are some cool facts regarding on this song that I've copycat from some reviews made by others.

"..the song 'Slow Me Down' is the perfect example of how beautiful music can be when Rossum uses her voice to replace the usual instruments. Rossum sings every single one of the 150 parts and harmonies of "Slow Me Down", including some of the percussion! It sounds wonderful and very serene, and listening to it makes you want to relax and slow down a little.."

Cool huh? Next - I want to download another song from her titled Falling. Hopefully it wont disappoint me. And oh ya, sorry for keep on posting lyrics here because currently I'm updating my playlist. So harap bersabar dan harap maklong! By the way, Emmy Rossum is very pretty, isnt she? (and her gorgeous hair.. and and her blushy cheeks.. and and her lusty lips.. kan kan? gila best! *sigh*)

Slow Me Down by Emmy Rossum

Rushing and racing and running in circles
Moving so fast I'm forgetting my purpose
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning
Getting nowhere

My head and my heart are colliding chaotic
Pace of the world I just wish I could stop it
Try to appear like I've got it together
I'm falling apart

Save me
Somebody take my hand and lead me
Slow me down
Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
Cause I'm ready to fall

Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flies by
I need you to slow me down

Sometimes I fear that I might disappear
In the blur of fast forward I falter again
Forgetting to breathe
I need to sleep
I'm getting nowhere

All that I've missed I see in the reflection
Pass me while I wasn't paying attention
Tired of rushing, racing and running
I'm falling apart

The noise of the world is getting me caught up
Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it
Just need to breathe
Somebody please
Slow me down

What Does Your Birthday Means?

Your birthday means that you love the sun and the beach
Your best colors are red and yellow
You tend to have many friends and you are well-liked, possible because of your outgoing and sunny personality
You are a very positive and enthusiastic person
Shopping is likely something you enjoy very much, not just for yourself, but for other people as well
You shine at parties and get togethers, and you are definitely an extrovert

"You love the sun / sunny personality"?? Remember my previous post about my commercial name?

Nur Suria = cahaya matahari = Sunshine!!

That explains everything, isnt it? So, sun.. sunny?? duhh.. ofcoz la kan, no wonder -_-"

I'm A Lyrics Maniac

Yeah I am.. I admit that and that is why I'm going to post another lyrics here. Pathetic am I? Well, boo-yah.. dont care and dont mind! Disclaimer di sini, this song is not related to my love-life at all and there's no such thing as dedication session here OK? Dont misunderstood, please bear that in mind ;p (living in denial.. denial.. haha)

Here is Someone You Used To Know by KokoKaina (click to watch the vid at youTube). Suara dia sangat soothing bak kata Shukor.. she's superb *wink*

It was helpless anyway
There's nothing much we could do or say
Darling don't you think it's a shame?
That it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye
Our love is lost, and we cant figure why
Maybe it really is about time
That we finally made up our minds

So Darling, here's to you
I hope that when you find someone new
That she would always be true to you
To love and understand you

Soon you'll build new memories
Then slowly you'd forget about me
Then I would slowly be.. a distant memory

Soon I'll just be
That someone you used to know
But darling you will thank me
For letting you go

Time is not for wasting
I hope you'll find your intended
But I'm sorry.. that your intended isn't me

It's not an easy thing
To shake off our history
I know that's what you want from me
But they will always stay with me

I admit I made mistakes
But darling with you it's just the same
If we stay there will be more to make
I dont know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair
To stay with something no longer there
It's not that I no longer care
But I'd feel like a burden you can't bear

Dream-less

Last nite dream was a nightmare!! NO NO (I can read ur dirty little mind ;p) it wasnt a wet dream, this one is way more scarrier than that.. enough said, LOL!

By the way, do listen to this song.. Rocket by Yuna, I like the way she sings.. she got attitude. Actually lama dah lagu ni but then baru arini aku google for the lyrics.. do google for it OK? (it's a guitar-based song)

You're like a rocket in my mind
That's waiting to define everything about me no one knew
And you stick like a poster on my wall
As if you dont wanna move

I got no money in my pocket
Nobody to rock with but you
But you know me I don't sing that well
Somehow we managed to get through

People come and people go
And people gonna come some more
They pick a fight but it's alright
At least I get to see you tonight.. tonight

I can't believe we almost got famous for nothing baby
You came the last minute of panic to save me
I can't believe we almost got paid for nothing baby
Cause even if they go away
I got the feeling that you're gonna stay

It's like I'm picking up a miracle off the sidewalk
Like kitten in the box
Don't contemplate yourself, you say
Cause you're all you've got
I'm a saddic and pathetic
At the same time unlike you
Baby you've got no move
And you think I'm good at what I do

You're like a rocket in my mind
Waiting to define everything about me
You're like a poster on my wall
Sticking, don't wanna fall
As if you dont wanna move

Less Words, More Papers & Pencils

andy:

update blog...update blog...update blog..update blog...update blog...update blog..update blog...update blog...update blog..update blog...update blog...update blog..update blog...update blog...update blog..update blog...update blog...update blog..

andy:

boring lah i... until i have to check ur blog hourly to see whether it's updated or not.. :p

**Andy (bukan nama sebenar.. LOL)

Ok ok, im updating it now.. but with lesser words ;p Anyway, I've just watched Madagascar: Escape 2 Africa on last Sunday.. hurm I think I'd prefer the 1st movie more la. Yang kali ni tader lagu trademark pun, benci I tau. Not like the 1st one.. "I like to move it move it!!" sambil guyang-guyang badan, haha!

And oh ya.. di sini saya lampirkan sekali sketch yg di'sketch' malam tadi yer kengkawan. Sketch Allahyarham Tan Sri P.Ramlee yang tak berapa nak P.Ramlee sangat.. muahhaha! Busan seh malam tadi, lepas balek dari meet up dengan dak-dak skola trus macam tatau nak buat ape. Laptop tader pulak tu.. taleh nak online, mati kutu-kutu kat kepala aku ni! I think I will need more papers and pencils in future to occupied my 'free' time, duhh thts LAME! -_-"

Takziah dan Al-Fathihah

Takziah buat Lieya and family atas pemergian datuknya semalam..
Sama-samalah sedekahkan Al-Fathihah buat arwah.. Al-Fathihah

True Blessings

10 November 2008
7:15pm
petrol station, Petronas

"Assalamualaikum kak.. maaf ye" datang sorang budak perempuan berbaju kurung lusuh, umur around 12 tahun agaknya. "Beli ni kak untuk rumah kebajikan anak-anak yatim?" sambil menunjukkan kertas-kertas pembalut hadiah yang ada kat tangan dia. Aku just senyum and geleng kepala tanda tak mahu membeli lalu aku terus berdiri di sisi kereta sambil menunggu minyak penuh. Aku dah lali dah dengan taktik-taktik jual nama rumah kebajikan ni, sure sindiket. Dua tiga kali jugaklah aku toleh balek kat budak perempuan tu, ntah la.. rasa kesian kot. Mata aku melilau-lilau tinguk keliling kot-kot ada kereta atau van atau orang yang monitor pergerakan budak perempuan ni sebab selalunya macam tu la. Sejurus selepas habis isi minyak, suddenly aku terdetik nak tanya something kat budak tu. "Dik, sini kejap dik".. dengan lemah longlai dia datang ke arah aku sambil menjinjing beg plastik yang berisi pembalut hadiah tadi. "Adik dah makan belum?", dia mengangguk laju sambil berkata sudah. "Betul ni? Tak baik tau tipu. Betul ni dah makan? Sumpah?". Dia terdiam, seakan terperangkap dengan soalan aku tadi bila aku suruh dia sumpah. Bukan tujuan aku suruh dia sumpah, cuma aku tau budak kecil seperti dia tak berani bermain dengan sumpah, tak macam kita orang dewasa ni. Then, dia geleng-gelengkan kepala menandakan sebenarnya dia belum makan lagi. "Akak tanak kasi duit tau tapi akak nak belikan makanan untuk awak. Jom pegi beli makanan jom?". Terus budak perempuan tu bertanya dengan nada cemas bila aku bukak pintu kereta.. "Eh akak nak buat ape?". Maybe dia takut aku heret dia pegi balai polis agaknya or bawak dia pegi mane-mane, tapi sebenarnya aku just nak amek purse aku kat dalam handbag. "Tader apa la dik (aku tersenyum tinguk respon dia), jom kita beli makanan kat dalam kedai Petronas tu jom?" Seakan malu, dia menyuruh aku pergi sendirian. "Taperlah kak, akak pegi la yer. Saya tunggu kat sini jegh..". Aku pun masuk mini-mart Petronas and capai air and roti-roti memandangkan tader makanan lain yang dijual kat situ. Taperlah, janji dia boleh alas perut buat sementara kan? Aku pun menuju balek ke kereta and bagi beg plastik yang berisi air and roti-roti tadi kat budak perempuan tu, "Makan tau, akak balik dulu..". Dia mengangguk senyum.. "Terima kasih ye kak!" Sempat jugak aku menjeling kat cermin belakang, budak perempuan tu tengah membelek-belek kandungan beg plastik yang aku bagi tadi. Hurm..

On my way back home, I kept on thinking about that small little girl.. and I was thinking, do I take many things in my life for granted? Sometimes we tend to compare ourselves with someone else like those who seem to have it all, but actually we never know what's going on inside. Who knows, they might look happy, but they might be miserable as well. Maybe I should stop from thinking like "I should have it like they do" and start to look at those who aren't as fortunate as I am and take note of how blessed I am. And please dont misunderstood, I'm not writing this down to show off or whatsoever, tak terlintas and tak ada niat langsung. I just would like to share the moral of the story behind all this. Somehow, by looking at the world a little differently, you just might realize how much you have to be thankful for. Alhamdulillah..

Count your blessings instead of your crosses
Count your gains instead of your losses
Count your joys instead of your woes
Count your friends instead of your foes
Count your smiles instead of your tears
Count your courage instead of your fears
Count your full years instead of your lean
Count all the kind deeds instead of the mean
Count your health instead of your wealth
Count on God instead of yourself

Flakes by Mystery Jets

This song..
Is one I never thought that I'd play
But if you want me gone
There are kinder ways to say
So long than spitting in my face

They don’t teach these things in school
They just lay down the rules which are there for you to break
Which are there for you to break

If I’m wrong
Then dust me off and put me in my place, but
Drop a bomb
Shall you blow me away without even a trace?
I’ll be gone and I won’t give chase

‘Cause when you’re in pieces, you pick up the bits
and nothing fits, and the wind blows you away
Oh, the wind blows you away

I pray..
There will come a time when I think of you and I smile
These days
Everything seems to last only a while
Remember the names
For the day when we’d have a child

But the trouble with dreams, they’re not what they seem
‘Cause when you awake, they fall through your fingers.. in flakes
They fall through your fingers in flakes

oh i luv the lyrics as well Chucky! Tapi kenapa lagu dia tak begitu mencocok hatiku? But still, lyrics dia best seriously, xspecially the last para..

But the trouble with dreams, they’re not what they seem
‘Cause when you awake, they fall through your fingers.. in flakes
They fall through your fingers in flakes

Dear Nabila

Hey.. this entry is made for ya! Thanks for this cute dress (top one).. but seriously, it looks good on ya more than on my body seh.. haha! And here I updated some more piccies for ya (the one that I've bought from ya.. thanks to you, darl.. you've made me went 'bankrap' already tau -_-"

p/s: sorry, some of the pictures are quite blur.. tangan member I parkinson.. haha! Opss

DO YOU HAVE BALLS?

This one goes to you, Mr Y****
You've made Anne, one of my besty suffer.. big time! Please stop pujuk-pujuk dia balek kat ko boleh tak? Sedangkan you've already chosed to get married to your so-called 'beloved' wife! You've made up your mind, so please please please I beg you, please be responsible for action taken. If you really love her that much, why at the first place you chosed to marry your wife instead of Anne? Duhh.. wake up dan jangan tamak boleh tak?! Dude, you've just got married less than 3 months but you have already planning to have an affair on her back? Aku sangat kesian dengan wife kau wahai Mr Y****. I don't even know you but dont forget that the world is getting smaller and smaller, whereby your 'beloved' wife is actually my ex-coursemate and Anne is my ex-roomate back then. So you better go back to your so-called 'beloved' wife and behave! Tolong jaga 'life' dan 'hati' yang kau punya sekarang, remember - yang diikat cincin itu jari, bukan hati.

"Be careful what you wish for, coz you just might get it all and then some you don't want"

(oh dont worry Mr Yusri, it wasnt you.. so just sit still and read along)

DO YOU HAVE BALLS?
written by Wani Ardy

Do you have balls?
Yes, you heard me.

Do you have balls?
No, I'm not asking you to unzip and see what's underneath the brief.

I'm asking you,
do you have balls?

Berani kau luah yang kau kasihkan aku?
Berani kau tunjuk yang kau kasihkan aku?

Berani kau khabar pada satu dunia jika kau perlu?
Berani kau bukti pada satu dunia jika kau perlu?

Berani kau rangkul hodoh-hodoh aku?
Berani kau sambut bodoh-bodoh aku?

Berani kau tadah tangis-tangis aku?
Berani kau isi kosong-kosong aku?

Berani kau ada dengan aku tiap kali aku sedih?
Berani kau ada dengan aku tiap kali aku sakit?

Berani kau dukung aku jika kaki aku lemah?
Berani kau suap aku jika tangan aku gigil?

Berani kau cari ubat aku di serata pelosok, di tengah-tengah malam bila semua klinik tutup?
Berani kau pandu untukku di waktu subuh, dihenyak lalulintas dengan mata kau mengantuk?

Berani kau lebihkan apa yang kurang?
Berani kau mudahkan apa yang susah?

Berani kau usaha sebanyak mana aku usaha?
Berani kau cuba sebanyak mana aku cuba?

Berani kau semai harapan dan tumbuhkan janji?
Berani kau akui salah dan minta maaf setulus hati?

Berani kau hargai dan hormati aku sebagaimana aku hargai dan hormati kau?
Berani kau tak sampahkan aku sebagaimana aku tak sampahkan kau?

Berani kau tak berpaling dari ku walaupun ketika kau marah?
Berani kau tak berpaling dari ku walaupun ketika aku marah?

Berani kau jawab panggilan aku?
Berani kau balas perasaan aku?

Berani kau ambil berat tentang apa yang berat dalam hidup aku?
Berani kau faham bahawa aku manusia berjiwa dan berotak, bukan objek bertanda hak milik mutlak?

Berani kau rutinkan kejujuran?
Berani kau rutinkan kepercayaan?

Berani kau rumus pendirian kau dan pilih aku?
Berani kau pilih aku dan hanya kasihkan aku?

Berani kau lepaskan aku jika aku tak bahagia?
Berani kau lepaskan aku jika kau tak bahagia, dan kau katakan ke muka ku bahawa kau tak bahagia?

Now I’ll ask you again,
do you have balls?

Kalau kau tak berani semua ini,
jangan sekali pun terlintas di kepala kau bahawa kau kasihkan aku.

Serupa saja aku dikasih yang sejenis.

Geek

Err, am confused whether fibre channel disk drives and fibre disk array are the same or not.. Are they? Hurm damn, this aint gonna work for me. H*ll, need to read through again one more time then.. or twice, or... I'll just rendam the notes and minom macam sup ekor so that all the info can melekat until when when and stuck still? Waaa I don't even drink sup ekor.. These server side and hardwares thingy has already begin to give me a headache. Taperlah, atleast banyak benda boleh belajar.. kan? Tu pun if aku manage to pickup, dengan firewall lagi, vpn, database side, vmware lagi and so forth.. gosh banyak la pulak kan. But then kalo tak camne? Oh my, then how.. the pressure starts to spread on either side *fainted*

And yeah, don't be too happy and hyperly excited once you have graduated from uni yer adek-adek (whereby some people just can't wait to get rid off their books and notes.. not me, ofcoz -_-"). FYI, the learning cycle is actually a never ending chapter seh. You'll keep on learning and learning, xspecially in the real 'working world'. Tapi ia bukanlah nitemare, jangan risau.. ini bukan mimpi ngeri, everyone need to go through the same phase, just kena sabar sikit (sabar banyak kot) sebab.... dalam dunia ni tader remote control untuk fast forward the time ;p

The conclusion is, if ada benda baru kena belajar, belajar jegh lah sungguh-sungguh.. tak payah lah gatal-gatal nak exercising your fingers by posting some 'luahan perasaan' entry kat blog macam aku.. sekian!

p/s: sketch yg malas, pensel yang tekan-tekan tu out of 'bullet' so gune pen.. disaster!