MD Chronology

This is how a pemalas blogger updates her entry. Photo stories aren't that bad, aite? Hehehe. Anyway, very glad my first attempt baking Red Velvet Cake turned out okay, just okay. I know, the frosting is very messy, muahaha and the taste is too sweet. Perhaps next time I should reduce the sugar I guess. Again, as what people always said, the effort that matters the most!

I'm not really good at expressing my feelings in words. So I guess this is one of the ways to show Mak how much I truly love her and appreciate all the things that she have done for us all this while. Happy Mother's Day, Mak.. SURI LOVES YOU VERY MUCH!!

And oh, saya tak tahu kenapa saya nampak sangat gelap di sini T__T

A Letter From Mom and Dad

My child,

When I get old..
I hope you understand and have patience with me.

In case I break a plate, or
spill soup on the table because I'm loosing my eyesight,
I hope you don't yell at me.
Older people are sensitive.. always having selfpity when you yell.

When my hearing gets worse and I can't hear what you're saying,
I hope you don't call me "Deaf!"
Please repeat what you said or write it down.

I'm sorry, my child.. I'm getting older.
When my knees get weaker,
I hope you have the patience to help me get up.
Like how I used to help you while you were little.. learning how to walk.

Please bear with me..
When I keep repeating myself like a broken record,
I hope you just keep listening to me.
Please don't make fun of me or get sick of listening to me.

Do you remember when you were little and you wanted a balloon?
You repeated youself over and over until you got what you wanted.

Please also pardon my smell, I smell like an old person.
Please don't force me to shower, my body is weak.
Old people get sick easily when they're cold.
I hope I don't gross you out.

Do you remember when you were little?
I used to chase you around because you didn't want to shower.

I hope you can be patient with me,
when I'm always cranky.
It's all part of getting old.
You'll understand when you're older.

And if you have spare time,
I hope we can talk, even for a few minutes.
I'm always all by myself all the time and have no one to talk to.
I know you're busy with work.
Even if you're not interested in any stories, please have time for me.

Do you remember when you were little?
I used to listen to your stories about your teddy bear.

When the time comes and I get ill and bedridden,
I hope you have the patience to take care of me.
I'm sorry.. if i accidentally wet the bed or make a mess.
I hope you have the patience to take care of me during the last few moments of my life.

Im not going to last much longer, anyway.
When the time of my death comes,
I hope you hold my hand and give me the strength to face death.

And don't worry..
When I finally meet our Creator..
I will whisper in His ear.. to bless you.

Because you loved your Mom and Dad.
Thanks you so much for your care.
We love you.

with much love,
Mom and Dad

Where is Humanity?

Same as the rest of you out there, the least we can do is pray for the Gazans and fly their flag for 7 days to show our protest against the Zionist attack. Sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Besar dan Allah itu Maha Berkuasa atas tiap-tiap isi langit dan bumi. Semoga Kau melaknati tiap mereka yang bersifat terlalu keji itu.. amin.

Allahuakbar..
Allahuakbar..
Allahuakbar..

picture: http://gazahumanrights.blogspot.com

Hopelessly-Romantic

p/s: dedicate this song to all LDR couples out there :)

Nanometer by Wani Ardy


Everyday I decide to wake up, to unseal my eyes
Everyday I exit my blanket, depart from my bed

For it’ll draw us closer
For it’ll draw us closer

Everyday I decide to learn a day has passed
Everyday I mutely wish to experience the ride

Of growing closer and closer
Of growing closer and closer

I do not want to miss even a nanometer closer to you
Like falling in love.. tardily, again and again
We share a ceiling
and its entire solar system
God is kind

I do not want to miss even a nanometer closer to you

Mr. Capitalism is abducting you away from me
This song is plausibly the only way you can be reached

Time is generous
And distance is oh so ruthless

Roller Coaster

Saturday Night Acoustic
March 13, 2010 at Gravy Baby

Roller Coaster by Wani Ardy


Take off those sunglasses
that are covering your swollen eyes
let the world see them
it makes you feel alive

Take off every plaster
pasted on your arms
let the world see them
you cannot be harmed

It’s a roller coaster
we’re living in
shut our eyes
or close our ears
or cry out all our fears

Swear at the top of our lungs
throughout every pitch-black tunnel
thought we’re gonna die at every lap
yet we survive in the end

On shaky rides
we’ll drop some things
some things we love
we love and lost
I’m your safety belt
through collides and strides
it will be alright

Swear at the top of our lungs
throughout every pitch-black tunnel
thought we’re gonna die at every lap
yet we survive in the end

It will be alright

Swear at the top of our lungs
throughout every pitch-black tunnel

Kepada you-know-who-you-are,

Saya bukan budak 18 tahun yang boleh digula-gulakan dengan kata-kata manis. Kata-kata manis itu umpama gula-gula manis yang membahayakan kesihatan gigi, I'll get cavity. Maaf, saya sayang gigi saya. Sila simpan saja gula-gula itu untuk orang lain, maybe if you are lucky enough, they will buy it. No, you are not my SURREAL :)

I guess you'll never really know
What life has for you in store, surreal

Papadom vs Papachot (Abah)

Last night, Nurul asked me to check out Intan's recent note, posted on FB. I was too tired to log in to FB, so I didn't. I went to sleep instead. Finally just now, I've read the note as told. I was not even halfway through reading the note when suddenly, I burst into tears. "Papadom vs Papachot @ Abah" - that's the title of the entry. FYI, Abah is also known as Chot among our relatives on Abah's side in Kedah. You might know nothing about Abah, therefore, here I would like to share this note that had so many heartfelt memories, written by Intan, my 3rd elder sister.

Hello....

It has been awhile since I last posted note in my FB and it also has been awhile since I last wrote on my blog. But today, after watching Papadom, I just feel like wanna share stories about my Papachot.

I never thought that this Papadom would be non-comedy movie, like Afdlin's other movies. Yeah, I didn't read the review about it. Hubby gave the link to me, so because I had no other 'stocks' on my laptop, I watched it. At the end, iskkk... it reminds me about all that Abah did, not only for me but for our family.

In Papadom, Saadom did everything he can to protect his daughter. He made sure that she was safe and sound, especially after the incident that happened to his wife. My Abah also did the same to us. The different was, my Abah was and also is.. not as wealthy as Papadom, who could do anything just to be with his daughter.

My Abah sacrifices his life for us. Yes, it's not past tense. Because at this age, unfortunately, he still does a lot of things for us, including me. I wish I am a millionaire, so that I can give him whatever that he needs, so that he doesn't need to work. He has been working since he was 18 years old and now he is 56. It's about time for him to stay at home, enjoy his life.. but, I AM NOT even half way to be a millionaire.

This evening, I chatted with my sis and I told her to make sure that once she started working, don't forget about our parent, especially my dad. I told her that whatever difficulties that may arise, we should not burden Abah. Alhamdulillah, since I got my 1st salary, I manage to ease their burden (not 100% of coz). I told my sis, not all the time we can give whatever Abah asks for, but at least, we should not make him upset.

I still remember when I was at MRSM, at that time, I was his first kid who stayed at hostel. There was one time, Abah came to fetch me back home. It was end of the month, when everybody was allowed to go home for 2 nights. I didn't manage to get a bus ticket (I cannot remember why). I saw Abah waiting for me at the car park. We didn't have car at that time, because for him, education for his kids is more important than comfort in his life. He RODE motorbike all the way from Serdang to Melaka!! He came just to make sure that I can go home to be with my family. I guess he didn't want her daughter to spend the weekend at hostel, while most of the students are with their own families.

The moment I saw the bike, he told me, "It's ok, we will go to taxi station. You go back by taxi". How could I let my own dad riding a bike ALONE, while I sit in a comfort taxi? How could I travel around 120 km by taxi, when I know my dad is riding bike THAT FAR? Then I said, "No, I will go with you.". Yup, that was exactly what I did.

I believe most of you, had never been on motorbike that far (except for those who had been on bike expidition, or guys who had motorbike before) but, I experienced it myself. Every time Abah is asking me to do something, I keep reminding myself of this moment, keep telling myself, because of him, I am here.. because of him, I achieved a lot of things.

Enough flashbacks of my old memories. Until now, Abah is still Abah, who cares about his kids. Eventhough three of his kids are married (including me), he never forget us. Every time he goes for outstation and bring back raw seafood or durian, he calls each one of us and asks us to come over and take some of them. Every time he bring back something nice, and any of my younger sisters are not around (either at hostels or etc), he tells Mak not to tell them. When I wanted to sell my old car, he was the one who arrange it for me. Even when I go for assignment (outstation), almost every time, he sends me off to the airport.

So, let us be grateful for whatever that our dads have done for us. Only Him can pay our dads for all their kindness.

Cheers,
Intan..

p/s: only now I remember, actually Papachot really SIMILAR with Papadom. Papachot worked as Security Officer when I studied @ UKM.. hihihihi

Quote of The Week

People lately keep on asking me the "cepumas" question and you guys do know what kind of Q that am talking about. Soalan kegemaranku, oh tolonglah percaya (please read it sarcastically, OK). Well, I'm busy putting more 'layers', haha.. nahhh, I'm just not into it as yet. I am feeling tired still. Yeah, it's kinda tiring you know. After you put in so much efforts, but got nothing in return, so you kinda feel frustrated and doesn't feel like 'playing' anymore. And as for now, I'd prefer to just sit back and watch others.. while eating popcorns, LOL! Hey, let's enjoy the show..

There’s a point in life where you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything. But it’s not giving up. It’s realizing that you don’t need certain people and the bullshit they bring.

Come & Go

Jasad saja yang pergi
'Hati' masih kat sini

Pak Long, my mum's eldest brother has just passed away this morning. So, pagi tadi semua orang straight away off to Melaka. Sememangnya arwah sejak beberapa tahun kebelakangan ni tak berapa sihat, maybe sebab tu semua seakan-akan tenang dan boleh terima, I guess. Hurm..

Anyway, could you guys do me a favour, please? Tolong sama-sama doakan semoga arwah diampunkan segala dosa, semoga arwah tetap tenang di 'sana' dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman, amin! Al-Fathihah..

October Chronology

Nampaknya October adalah bulan "LOVE IS IN THE AIR".
Dan seperti biasa, December adalah musim 'mengawan', hahaha!

#1st October's "LOVE IS IN THE AIR"
Dua orang teman baik telah dirisik dan salah seorang dari mereka, sudah sembilan tahun kami berteman rapat. To both of you, semoga cepat-cepat diikat jarinya dengan cincin tunang, ya? InsyaAllah, amin!

#2nd October's "LOVE IS IN THE AIR"
Seorang teman baik memberitahu yang beliau bakalan bertunang tak lama lagi. Memandangkan aku orang pertama yang tahu, maka dada rasa sesak nafas sebab nak menahan diri dari bergosip dengan semua orang, HAHA!

#3rd October's "LOVE IS IN THE AIR"
Seorang lagi teman baik mengkhabarkan berita gumbira yang beliau akan menjadi isteri orang tak lama lagi. Hebat tak hebat, they have been together for 10 years and their wedding will be on their 11th anniversary, menarik. By the way FYI, she's a Chinese and gonna get married to a Malay guy. So, jadi bertambah tak sabar nak saksikan detik-detik dia mengucap dua kalimah syahadah nanti. Menjadi orang kedua yang diberitahu, sekali lagi aku rasa nak menjerit sebab tak boleh nak bergosip dengan orang lain. Sesak, sesak.. T___T

#4th October's "LOVE IS IN THE AIR"
Ini paling terbaik. Kes paling rare sekali sebab si gadis yang proposed si lelaki. Why not.. comel kan? The mastermind? Ehem, of course la *cough* saya *cough* (giggles). And yezza, they finally got engaged on last Saturday. Special thanks to Shukor and Aen kerana menjemput daku mengikuti rombongan "cik kiah" ke Seremban, hehe. It was so wonderful to be there with both of you and be witness to the love that you have found in each other.

Dan kepada kamu semua di atas ini (you-know-who-you-are), saya doakan yang terbaik buat kalian, semoga hubungan ni kekal hingga ke jinjang pelamin dan berkekalan hingga ke akhirat kelak. Amin.

Shukor & Aen: Pasangan 'kucing' yang montel :D
Rantai Art 2008 (credit to: OB)

There is more to life
than watching other people live it

Maka, silalah doakan turn saya akan sampai juga, ya kawan-kawan?
Aminnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! (kena la panjang sikit kan, hohoho)

Hip Hip Hooray!

OMG.. OMG.. OMG!
I LOVE THE GOOD NEWS, gila happy!!!!! *jumping jumping*
Heee.. tak sabar seh :D

Alhamdulillah..
OK, that's all folks.. daa! *giggles*

Degup Mati: Al-Fathihah

Al-Fathihah buat ayahanda tersayang Maz, her dad just passed away just now. Sangat sedih. Takziah buat Maz and family.

Aku harap sangat-sangat kau kuat and sabar dengan dugaan Dia yang sangat besar ni, Maz. I am really sorry sebab hilang kata-kata tadi, I'm very sad and shocked to hear the news. Even while I'm writing this down and even masa aku forward SMS kat semua orang, airmata aku tak boleh berhenti menitik. Hurm, apatah lagi kau kan. Sabar ya, Maz? Be strong dear, same goes to your mom and the rest of the family.

Gosh, again I'm speechless.. I lost my word seh.
Just remember, we will always be there for you whenever you need us, whenever you need a shoulder to cry on, nah.. go ahead and cry your heart out. Maaf, aku tak pandai berkata-kata ;'(

Sekali lagi, Al-Fathihah.. Innalillah


p/s: Sigh.. what a coincidence! The title of my painting - "Blow Those Drips Away" actually means "wipe off those tears". *big sigh*

UPDATED: ZIARAH

Dari jauh jelas kelihatan deretan kereta berdekatan rumah Maz. Dalam rumpunan yang datang menziarahi arwah, aku tercari-cari kelibat Maz. "Oh dia bertudung", bisik aku sendiri. Hampir tak perasan. Aku tepuk belakang dia. Tatkala Maz menoleh dan lantaran yang dilihat itu aku, dia terus peluk dan menangis laju. Aku paling pantang tengok orang menangis, aku jadi hiba sama.. airmata aku jadi 'murah' sama. Aku hilang kata-kata sekali lagi. Apa lagi mampu aku kata selain "Sabar banyak-banyak, Maz". Hurm.. Siapa siap bila dihadapkan dengan dugaan sebesar ini? Sedangkan bukan 'darah' aku yang 'pergi' pun aku sudah teresak macam ni rupa, inikan pula Maz.. ayah kandung dia sendiri. Siapa siap diuji sebegini hebat di kala bulan yang mulia ini..? *sigh*

Walau datang seribu nyawa yang dipanggil kekasih..
Takkan mirip dengan nyawa yang satu ini.
"Patah tumbuh, hilang berganti" bukanlah perumpamaan yang cocok.
Nyawa 'kekasih' yang satu ini, tiada galang gantinya.
Nyawa 'kekasih' yang satu ini hanya yang ini.. yang satu ini.
Bila degup 'nyawa' yang satu ini mati, kadang tersepit kita dengan emosi.
Namun, redhakanlah pemergiannya..
Agar dia dengan tenangnya mengadap Ilahi.
Dan kau.. tolong jangan berhenti 'berlari'.
Kau masih punya nadi di alam yang bukan hakiki ini.
Dan kau masih punya kami..

I Don't Care (shoot!)

Be With You by AKON
mp3: download

Oh shooooooooooooooooot!
I'm stuck with this song seh, for few weeks already.. DANG!

UPDATE: Too lazy to post this as a new entry, so just slot it in here. Do watch this short film, short yet sweet. Love without talking, auww.. this is so darn sweet! Heart this lots..

She has made his plain life less ordinary..

Laungan Keramat

Malam ini malam merdeka. Sambutan tak semeriah tahun-tahun sebelumnya, menghormati bulan mulia, bulan Ramadhan. Jumaat lepas, seorang teman yang bukan berkerakyatan Malaysia menghulur tangan kepada hampir semua teman termasuk aku sambil mengucapkan "Have a great weekend and Happy Independence Day", aku senyum sambil berterima kasih. Kemudian dia ucapkan ucapan yang sama kepada si polan 'bertuah' yang satu ini, biar aku panggil A (bukan nama sebenar). Si A tetiba tergelak, mungkin dirasakan lucu dengan perihal tersebut sambil berkata, "Here we don't shake hand and wish everybody during Independence Day, usually Malaysian don't give damn about it". Auch, sedih aku dengar kata-kata macam tu. Salah satu rakyat Malaysia yang tak sedar dek untung. Bayangkan, orang luar jauh lebih teruja menjelang Hari Kemerdekaan Malaysia berbanding rakyat Malaysia sendiri, sadis kan?

Tayanglah Hati Malaya beribu kali pun, percayalah.. takkan menitik setitik pun airmata si empunya hati bebal, takkan sayu hati mereka-mereka ini menonton, takkan terusik hati mereka-mereka ini dengan kepayahan orang-orang dulu kita memperjuangkan kemerdekaan sendiri, takkan hiba hati-hati mereka ini memikirkan Tunku bertebal muka meminta Merdeka. Sadis kan?

Letihlah
letihlah Onn menelan caci maki
mengunyah hamun
mengait segala bangsa Malaya

Bazirlah
bazirlah nenek moyang bergolok gadai
bersorak genang
mendukung wira atas bahu para

Penatlah
penatlah Tunku turun naik pesawat
menembus mega
menggapai benda nama ‘merdeka’


click: Benda Nama 'Merdeka'
Wani Ardy

Dua telinga ni pernah jadi saksi kepada suara-suara sumbang yang mempersoalkan 1Malaysia. Kenapa ada jenis manusia ni yang suka mencari apa yang buruk dari memandang apa yang baik? Tak paham aku, ada jegh silap yang nak dipetik. 1Malaysia tu sebenarnya dah lama terjalin, cuma sekarang kita makin menjarak.. makin melupa. Kalau tak percaya, tanyalah orang tua memasing tentang saat-saat getir ketika kejadian berdarah 13 Mei dulu. Ini pengalaman Mak sendiri. Mak cakap, ketika Cina dan Melayu bergaduh waktu 13 Mei dulu, sebenarnya bukanlah semua Cina dan Melayu bercakaran begitu. Pada masa tu, yang Melayu pantang berjumpa yang Cina dan yang Cina pantang berjumpa yang Melayu dan waktu tu sebenarnya masih ada Melayu dan Cina yang tetap utuh berkawan baik, masih anggap masing-masing bersaudara. Maka, menurut kata Mak lagi, bagi mengaburi mata pihak-pihak tertentu, keluarga si Melayu akan tolong menyorokkan keluarga si Cina di rumah mereka dan keluarga si Cina pulak menyorokkan keluarga si Melayu di rumah mereka bertujuan mengelakkan kawannya tertangkap. Tengok, orang dulu kita dulunya sanggup memperjudikan nyawa sendiri nak melindungi kawan yang berlainan kaum. Kita? Haih, tak payah la cakap. Sedangkan sesama Melayu pun saling menikam, bukan belakang.. menikam dari depan pun ada, tanpa segan-segan.

Untung sesetengah kita ni masih berkawan tanpa mengira kaum, kan? Untung sesetengah kita ni tak ada sikap membeda-bedakan manusia mengikut warna kulit. I got lots of friends that has been surrounded by Malay's community since they were young like Jesse, Michelle, Kimberly and lot more. So kengkawan diorang mostly 1Malaysia which means majmuk. Dan kalau dengar diorang berbahasa Melayu, walaweh.. macam kita jugak. Hari tu, Kim nak cakap yang dia dah bosan makan Big Apple but instead of saying that dia dah bosan, dia cakap.. "Eee, aku dah JELAK lah makan Big Apple ni". Huish, aku pun jarang guna jelak as for bosan atau muak, huhu. Cuma kalau part peribahasa jegh kena perbetulkan once in a while, haha. That day, Kim ada tersalah petik "Kambing Korban" instead of "Kambing Hitam". And there's one thing that I can hardly forget, Andy's silly question.. LOL! Andy once asked me, "Err may I know, who are Zahir and Batin? Why everybody asking for their apologee during Hari Raya?". Cute huh? :) OK enough, panjang membebel.


Selamat menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan yang ke-52, Malaysia.
Semoga tetap utuh sebagai 1Malaysia.
Merdeka.. Merdeka.. Merdeka..

Tulus

"Antara cinta paling tulus aku pernah saksikan"
Jasmin Ghazalli
11:33 pm
August 30, 2009

Bacalah ini (click here), pasti bergenang airmata membaca. Aku tak terkecuali. What Jasmine wrote in her comment on Facebook is true, ini antara cinta paling tulus aku pernah lihat.. dengan mata kepala sendiri. Utuhnya tali kasih suami isteri pasangan 'Adam' dan 'Hawa' yang satu ini.


p/s: another must-read entry: click here

Should I?

**this entry was posted on Wednesday, April 22nd**

Ada orang tu cakap kan.. nak tengok movie ni sama-sama. Paging for Wani, paging for Wani! Bilanya Wani oi? Kita tengok DVD berjemaah je la jawabnya

**this part has been added on Sunday, May 24**

We (me, Wani, Ikim, Along) were supposed to watch this movie together last month, but unfortunately at the very last minute, we canceled our plan as Wani and Along couldn't make it. Poor thing, baru berangan nak beremosi sama-sama ;p kan Ikim? Anyway.. so, finally last night I watched He's Just Not That Into You (DVD.. as predicted earlier, LOL) and now I got the 'message', why on earth did everyone keeps asking me to watch this movie. Girls, if you still haven't watch this movie yet, I think you should seh. Just FYI, it's not a sappy lovey dovey movie or whatsoever, ia bukan movie yang akan buat anda menangis teresak-esak ye. It's worth a watch, seriously. There're lots of great lessons to be learnt from it. After you watch this, I bet you'll be like "OMG!! THAT IS SOOOO TRUE!!" and "Oooooooh OK, got it!" and "Duhh! How come I didn't noticed that before?", sambil ketuk kepala sendiri. Sila tonton OK? Anyway girls, here some catchy lines taken from the movie.

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up:
if a guy punches you, he likes you,
never try to trim your own bangs,
and someday you will meet a wonderful guy
and get your very own happy ending.

Every movie we see,
every story we're told.. implores us to wait for it.
The third act twist:
the unexpected declaration of love,
the exception to the rule.

But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending
We dont learn how to read the signs:
how to tell the ones who want us, from the ones who dont
the ones who will stay, from the ones who will leave.

And maybe this happy ending doesn't include a wonderful guy.
Maybe it's.. YOU, on your own..
picking up the pieces and starting over,
freeing yourself up for something better in the future.
Maybe the happy ending is just.. MOVING ON.

Or maybe the happy ending is this:
Knowing that..
through all the unreturned phone calls and broken hearts
through all the blunders and misread signals
through all of the pain and embarrassment;
you never, ever gave up hope.

The 'Shushh'

Took a sad song of one sweet evening, I smiled and quickly turned away. It's not easy singing sad songs but still the easiest way I have to say. So when you look into the sun and see the things we haven't done.. or was it better then to run than to spend the summer crying? So if you hear my sad song singing, remember who and what you nearly had. It's not easy singing sad songs when you can sing the song to make me glad. So when you look into the sun and see the words you could have sung: It's not too late, only begun, look into the sun.

by Jethro Tull

This song..
is one I never thought that I'd play
But if you want me gone
There are kinder ways to say
So long than spitting in my face

They don’t teach these things in school
They just lay down the rules which are there for you to break

If I’m wrong
Then dust me off and put me in my place, but
Drop a bomb
Shall you blow me away without even a trace?
I’ll be gone and I won’t give chase

Cause when you’re in pieces, you pick up the bits
and nothing fits, and the wind blows you away

I pray..
There will come a time when I think of you and I smile
These days everything seems to last only a while
Remember the names
For the day when we’d have a child

But the trouble with dreams, they’re not what they seem
Cause when you awake, they fall through your fingers.. in flakes
They fall through your fingers in flakes


re-post: Flakes by Mystery Jets

Matter of Heart

Text from Mak on April 27, 2009

"Nanti bila Mak n Abah dah sampai rumah, jangan tanya Abah pape tau. Abah menangis jegh sepanjang jalan ni.."

Orang kata askar ni keras, garang. Yer, Abah sememangnya garang. Kami adik beradik semua dah merasa penangan tali pinggang askar Abah yang tebal tu. Tapi hakikatnya, Abah kat luar jegh nampak garang, tapi bila masuk bab-bab family matters ni, hati Abah hanya sekeras kaca. Pantang dihempuk, pasti berderai pecah. Itulah Abah yang aku kenal. Sejurus sampai, aku jengah Mak kat bilik and tanya pasal Abah. Mak cakap, sepanjang-panjang perjalanan, airmata Abah tak berhenti-henti menitik. Abah drive straight dari Kedah ke KL, tak berhenti even satu hentian pun. "Yela, Abah tengah sedih lagi tu. Siapa tak sedih, adik sendiri meninggal..", sambung Mak. Even masa hari pengkebumian arwah, Abah was the last person to leave the cemetery. Kata Abah, "Abah tak sampai hati nak balik sebenarnya. Bukan apa, kan malaikat Munkar dan Nakir akan mula menyoal selepas 7 langkah orang yang terakhir tinggalkan kubur seseorang tu..". Sekali lagi Abah sebak..

Malam tadi sempat berborak sekejap dengan Abah, Abah cakap Abah terkilan tak dapat turunkan arwah sama-sama sampai ke liang lahat, sebab setibanya Abah kat tanah perkuburan, kubur arwah sudah separuh dikambus tanah. "Abah sampai sama-sama dengan kereta jenazah time tu, cuma lewat kejap nak cari parking. Sampai-sampai, tanah dah separuh. Rezeki Alang kot, dipermudahkan bahagian dia. Semua urusan cepat jegh. Masa mandikan jenazah pun senang, badan arwah terkulai lembut jegh. Muka putih bersih. Tapi tu la, orang lain (bukan adik-beradik) semua Abah turun sampai ke liang lahat, tapi Alang...". Abah dah tak mampu nak teruskan kata-kata. Dalam diam, Mak angkat-angkat kening, signal supaya topik tu tak diperpanjangkan lagi. Aku paham, Mak just tak mahu Abah sedih.

Aku teringat masa mula-mula Pak Lang admitted kat kampung. It was two months ago. Time tu Abah baru jegh hantar Pak Lang balik kampung sebab Pak Lang ada checkup kat HUKM if I'm not mistaken. Then a few days later, Mak Tok telefon Abah bagi tau Pak Lang admitted. Aku ada terdengar Abah cakap kat Mak, "Biarlah Norma dengan Ani pulak yang balik.", and Abah terus masuk bilik untuk solat Asar. But then after a short while, I've heard Mak was comforting Abah.. yes, Abah was crying. And I? I just couldn't help but cry when I overheard the convo between Mak and Abah. I don't even dare to get out from my room at that time. It really broke my heart seriously, sayu rasa hati mendengar Abah menangis.. airmata aku mula menitik laju. How I wish he will be doing just fine, how I wish I could do something to ease his burden.. how I wish *sigh*.
An awkward moment it was...

Hospital Taiping, Perak
Khamis, 6:02 pagi
April 23rd, 2009

Dari-Nya kita datang dan kepada-Nya kita kembali
innalillahi wainna ilaihi raaji’unn
Al-Fathihah buat Allahyarham Pak Lang
Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya dan semoga Allahyarham ditempatkan bersama kalangan mereka yang beriman.

99 Balloons: 99 Days of Baby Elliot

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99 Balloons

I've watched this on Oprah last Sunday, very touching sad video. It's about letters wrote to Baby Elliot, by his daddy, Matt.

Eventho Matt and Ginny (the parent) knew that their son, Elliot wasnt live for long even before he was born but still, they were going to enjoy every second they did have with him. Ginny even said, "I will be sad later."

Ida Scott Taylor once wrote:
Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone;
And do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come.
Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering

Seriously, you guys must watch this! ;'( *sad*

Falling Slowly by Glen Hansard/Marketa Irglova

I don't know you but I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me and always fool me
And I can't react

And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice, you have a choice
You make it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black

You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice, you have a choice
You've made it now

Falling slowly, sing your melody
I'll sing along

ZeroFourZeroFourZeroNine

Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you, dear Sir!
Happy Birthday to you

*hugs and smoochies*

Selamat hari ulangtahun yang ke-38.. eh ke-28, sayang! *grin*

And I've a suprise for you, sayang! I'll snap a picture of "it" tomorrow, OK? Only the picture la but you wouldn't get the real "picture" of "it" ofcoz, LOL! Nama pun suprise kan *wink* but I don't know whether you'll like "it" or not, hopefully you do. :)

Again, Happy Birthday to you! Wish you many years of happiness, err ok not many years but endless happiness ofcoz. Wish you best of luck in your beloved career, yes I know that you really love your job totally. And I would like you to know that I'm trying my best to be as supportive as I could. Dan ucapan seterusnya, akan bersambung di email sahaja.. ehem! ;P

And one more thing before we forgot, it's our 3rd month! Mohon dengan sangat Dia makbulkan hajat hati *smile*. Owh ya, about the sketch.. sorry if it's too childish yer, hehe!


Love,
Your dearest binguks.
*laga-laga hidung macam dalam sketch*


p/s: esok baru anta email sebab esok baru nak snap gambar "itu" :)